begging for forgiveness..

sorry my friends, i havent been writing nor i havent been making the family tree. I have it all written out and ready i just need to um...get in on the comp. Which i will try and get as soon as i can think of how to put the parents side by side along with the kids..

Seth~Tabiko Luke~Senran

children: Ryain and Scarlet children: Deimos and ___

i dont know..ill get it done now! ^^ dont like to start something and cant finish it now. just is a true reminder! anyway. ...

Rumor has it that the end of the world might come today.. i dont know..i heard it from tianna who heard it from her teacher. I dont know..

I have been having this sense of dread for the past weeks but I dont think it was the end of teh world. y'see...i think it was because of teh earthquake that happened yesterday. it was weird, no one else really felt it, not even me. but my mom did... and when she told me that my sense of dread went away.

however, when i went outside to feed my dog i felt like this super huge pressure on my head like somethign in the air was changing. Is that what animals feel when they know what is happening and we dont?

Carmel was doing the same thing..she was acting berserk as the rest of the dogs. they mellowed out after a few moments as did i.. but now...i feel the pressure once again.

whats going on?

RP issues

Mike and I were entered in a tournament. It had two parts; a magic tournament and a shapeshifting tournament. I entered the shapeshifting one while mike did the other one.

The finalist of the magic tournament was Seth, nikuu's grandpa while the finalist of teh shapeshifting tournament was Luke, who was a fallen angel. Its not Nikuu's other grandpa though...

Mike lost to Seth and i lost to Luke.. *sigh* so not fair....If i only transformed into a giant squid!!

Tianna wants to do a reset thing..i told her i was up for it but shes gotta take care of all other things. Is this why i feel that sense of dread too? i dont know...ive done this so many times...

Quote of the day

"well its a little somethign i call Fighter-doken! "

-Black Mage

Nikuu's family tree

As promised heres the family tree.. I know it looks a little funky but everyones there! maybe when i have time ill put down some info on the grandpas. They do have a very important history with the Dark royal empire...

This is the key:

male

female

~~= married/love

-= sibling related

* = name has meaning

** = name is different

Luke~Senran * Seth~ Tabiko

children: Senryu - Scarlet

children: Deimos - Kenta

Scarlet ~ Deimos

children of 1st litter: Kaggin - Amnon - Orion - Pandora - Araki - Aratsu

children of 2nd litter: Stun - Kiro* - Komoko - Kalious - Shayo

children of 3rd litter: Anshin - Zei* - Chiyu* - Katoru - Oobi - Kokitsu** - Zipporah

children of 4th litter: Ireu - Rowen

* Senran is japanese for 'war'

* Kiro is japanese for 'yellow. '

* Zei is japanese for 'duty or chore'

* Chiyu is japanese for 'cure or heal'

*Kokitsu is 'lil fox' in japanese. Name was changed to Nikuu upon being given to the Dark Princess.

*ireu is japanese for the word 'acceptance

RP issues

Mike had a rematched with Seth but it was cut short when Tabiko was crying over him fighting. She was more of a peace loving demon, being 1/2 elf and all.

And i met a new RP friend; Alex! ^^ hes pretty cool.. waaay different than the Alex i know. the other one anyway.. *chuckles*

Quote of the day

"sex! pure and raw of all its glory! now gimmie the icee!!"

-Dominique

Onegai...

Well today didnt even start well it seems. Its only 9:10 and im depressed and a bit irritated. My mom is not happy that i will not leave the GSA.. everyone else is hapy for me but to have your mom disappointed.. it still gets to you.

Everyone thinks im doing something well... even my roomate. But my mom is still going against teh religious thing.. *sigh* she doesnt understand that its not a choice.. people do not decide to be it..its just..how it is.

Also Tianna..she pounced on me today. I dont know if she saw my website or if she just not listening to what i ask for. Im not trying to be mean..im not trying to be cruel or rash (although shes done that to me many times. ) its just..she has some things to..um..learn; about friendships..and ...people in general. issues to take care of, even with herself. and mostly becasue of that..it hurts me. the things she says, the stuff she does, it wears me down and just..hurts me a lot..or makes me angry. I want her to take care of the stuff first so me and her can actually hang out without getting mad at eachother or feel like we hafta walk on eggshells just to be around one another.

I know im not doing anything wrong... except accepting what she does even if it hurts me or others..and im stopping that now.

so please... dont see me as mean or cruel...im not trying to hurt her ... i just..want things fixed..truly fixed. and the best thing to do is stay away until they are. Give her time until she learns. And if she doesnt *inhales* then i guess it wasnt meant to be...

It's not like im waiting for her..not like those romantic movies..just...staying away for a while, doing my own thing and letting her do what shes gotta do...

RP issues..

no RP..too tired. well i had a quick one with mike..but i was basically checkin up on him.. it seems that he's still out of it. I think hes just tired..

Quote of the day

"sleep dwell upon thy eyes, peace on thy breast! For i would to sleep and peace so sweet to rest!"

-Romeo

i dunno..sounded dirty. lol

Editor's note for The tale of mending

oh yea, about the hikari story..im extremely sorry that i havent written in it!! O.o but! im making a vow to at least make a post in it at least every other weekened at teh least. Ill make a new post on saturday, no matter what.

My club is doing well...the GSA. Everyone there is kind and are very open abotu their sexual orientation..which i have no problem with. ^__^ theyre normal, no matter what and they shouldnt be treated differently about what or how they feel about the same sex or love issues. It was suprising to see some people that I know to be waht they are. Im sure they were suprised about me as well.. They accepted me, as I have accepted them. And Ive never felt so happy..

But ui still have one worry..

My mother.

She, bein' a 'born again christian' would never truly undertand. So i feel totally scared about what she will do..what she will say. what she will think... I dont even think i can tell her about how I feel about it...what i am. What makes me happy..

I dont know what to do about this..thats why i joined that club. My mom wants me out; saying that it "goes against the will of god" Well heres what i hafta say about it.

I dont care!

If I wish to be in this club, then so be it! I am not harming anyone, Im not bringing down any certain group or religion or anything! I am helping others be in touch with themselves and let them know that they are accepted!! If you dont like it, tough. Its who I am and how i wish to be..

"against teh will of god..." if god is the one that created everythign he has created the darkness, the light, the dieseases, poverty, pain, anguish. If god has made all teh beings in teh world, he has created the ones of terrorists, the KKK, the racism. If god has known how we were to be; what our thoughts, our likes and dislikes before we were even a thought in our mother and father's mind then he, too, has made homosexuals, lesbians, bisexuals, transgenders,..everything..

so it is not wrong. It is gods making.. let it be.

Rp issues..

Mike wasnt in a good mood yesterday, like I. So we just sat back and talked. ^^ i needed to cheer up my friend cause it cheers me up.
Tianna somehow tracked me down and wanted to talk. She didnt really help..made my mood a bit worse. ::sighs heavily::

annnndd.... Kevin (animeknight) and i had a FF style battle. It was fun.. he kept trying to kill me and i didnt really attacked, just defend until he was otu of power and will...

We decided to keep it at a draw.


Announcement for Leigh..

-.- congrats on seeing your counselor and all...glad your getting things situated. yesterday, i wasnt trying to attack you..and i hope you get your things straight soon.

but until then we should stay away from each other until you truly got things situated. This will save me from worrying about you all the time and also getting mad of your comings and goings.

just...stay gone until your ready to truly stay. Not trying to be mean, but just think of it as kids running in and out of the house all the damn time. 'stay in if your gonna stay in..other than that..stay outside.

your letting the warmth out.'

You seem to be going on a straight path on getting things better... to make things right for you and ive never been so happy for you. It seems tou have a lot of problems that haunt you and i just want you to be better. That way things can get better for your other relationships, both friend-wise and love. But until then i know that things can happen where i can get hurt...or worry about you and it seems that you just dont care. like...a give and take situation; I give..you take.

so until i know things can get better... i dont really want nothing from you. If you wanna Rp or something, thats cool...I can do that with anyone. but nothing else, please. Thanx

Dominobi

Quote of the day

"I know nothing of god..or the devil. Ive never seen a vision nor learned a secret that will damn or save my soul..."

-Armand

It came with a vengence..

Well its here..Fall. It came rather quickly, to tell the truth..before i even knew it, it was here. First it was sunny witha few clouds then all of a sudden a black cloud came, thunder and lightning struck and the power went out! I was writing this exact post (it was more..present tense, but you know) and the power went out before i finished.. soo im writing it again.

the storm came without warning.. and I did what any person can do on a day like that..

Lay down and listen to the rain. It was pretty nice...i fell asleep and had dreams while laying in my sanctuary. It was quite peaceful..

My weekend wasnt bad at all...i did what i wanted and what ive always dreamed of doing.

Hang out with my friends! Tasha, Zach and Sheena all came over to my house after the rally! it was really nice..we went to M's Garden and grabbed us some chinese food, went home and watched movies. the only thing was we were all tired as well so we kinda took naps. Everyone says my house is peaceful..i always thought that they thought it was boring.. but they enjoyed themselves, and so did I. it was actually pretty nice to have other people come over. usually i have tianna or my cousins come to visit me.

Tasha spend the night too! we mostly talked to brian on the phone or went online; pranked a few people. We also went for a walk at like... 11:30 p.m.. jsut went to teh store to get a soda. ive never really gone so late before. It was so peaceful..

Well that was Friday...Saturday we did a few chores so mom didnt hafta do anything. It was much more fun with 2..and a whole lot easier. After that i made breakfast adn then we worked in my room to make it a true sanctuary...

my comps in my room now, squee!! ^____^ Now ill neva leave!! well..'cept to eat or use teh bathroom...

So after that Zach came back over and we kicked it at Jessica's party...we couldnt really stayed since Tasha's mom told tasha she coudlnt go..but we went anyway. After that we went home and watched Interveiw with the Vampire..

...tasha and zach never seen that movie before...so when i watched it with them it was kinda like my first time too... ::smiles:: Tasha thought that Lestat was hot, especially when hes angry... *blushes* i think so too...

hmm..what else...? i think thats pretty much it..other than that my nephews got beat up by my sister-in-law's boyfriend's friends? i dont know if that made any sense but these dudes came over to their house to look for some money, saw them and started to beat the snot out of them with hammers..theyre okay..they fought back pretty well and im quite proud of them. ::Smiles:: Im glad theyre well..

Rp issues..

This weekened I wasnt online very much so i couldnt really RP as well... Sunday i did get on though and talked to mike. we were talkign about different kinda hentai..hes quite..interesting.

Answer...

After much thinking and memories sweeping in i believe i remember the name of Nikuu's grandpa.

Seth.

Seth was Lucifer's minion and pet... and Lucifer is the Dark Lord's father... soooo the Agori family has been a part of the royal gaurdian thing for quite sometime. Hes the grandfather of all the children and is actually Deimos's father...

now about the name Luke..i really like that name so i might use it for Scarlet's father's name.. hehehe..so many ideas already popping into my mind on this one.

Anyway, i believe its Seth.Leigh, if you can, check it out for me. I know you have some info on it..your lil composition book has it. How do I know? cause i made 1/2 of that comic!

Quote of the day

"Love look not with the eyes but with the mind and therefore is wing'd cupid painted blind"

-A midsummer night's dream

*yawn*

Sup peoples? new location! currently im in comp tech, learning about Microsoft excel... its alright, i suppose. not so bad. i just actually signed into my site to remember soemthing...

horse. rig. death. apartment. black.

its for my dream site. people who read this, remember to check my xanga site! thanx..

um..i have a lot to say..well right now i do. but i dont think its truly that important. i just need to get soem thigns situated..truly. need to stop messing around.


RP issues

mike is on the search for all of nique's personas! 13 in all.
Mir got to hear pet's story...how sad.
and charliess....still acting weird. ::Blink blink::

Quote of the day

"when, lord, when!? when's gonna be my time?!"

-Banky.

Question:

ahem..if anyone remembers Nikuu's grandpa's name would you mind refreshing my memory? i wanna say Luke really bad but i dont think thats it. Actually im only talking to two people here on this one... one really.

Im planning to make nikuu's family tree.

Happy birthday!!

^____^ to my dear friend, John.. ( yea, you!) i wish him a happy birthday. i dont know how old he is... o.o; 17 i believe. of course i could be wrong and im sorry! that would be the 3rd time i messed up with him. Messed up by forgetting his birthday, didnt know his sign (virgo!! ) and now i dont know his god damn age! hopefully hell read this and hell tell me!! >_<

Anyway, happy birthday my lil' virgin. .(hehe..virgo, the virgin) Dont work yourself too hard and make sure to ...uh... use protection! lol!!

With love from your quirky friend,

Dominique

Quote of the Day

"Here's the thing: We're introverts. That doesn't mean we're shy or anti-social or rude. Introversion is not wrong. It's a legitimate state of being that a significant number of us share. It's just that our idea of vacation is more likely to involve being alone or with a few favorites than with people we don't know."

-Trudy Tantalo

Weird day...

Hey folks! been a whlie since ive been writing, I know. Im just bogged down with Homework from Geometry, goverment and Japanese...and i do get pretty tired. also ive been helping with remodling the house and helping Alexis move it. she brought a lot of her furniture here so the house looks like a house. we actually have a table in the dining room! yay!

The three-day weekened was pretty nice...got to talk to friends, get some t.v watching done (Teen Titans, GO!! ) and got my hair done!

However, there were some bad times too.

I was brused and beaten, got burned 5 times on my scalp and got a sudden IM. Thats not bad really, but my speakers were up full blast so the sound i heard was a little too loud for comfort. Who was the IM from? Well none other than the red-head...

It was very strange for me...we havent really talked since hot august days... and even then it was a bit awkward. sure, we had a few laughs..but something was missing. I dunno..it was kind of hard to explain. It was like she had something to say to me but wasnt saying it...

anyway, she IMed me and was telling me about this 'Casey' fellow. Im happy that she found someone else to kinda lust over.. *smirks* heard hes pretty strange...maybe thats why shes so..chipper. Anyway she was all telling me about her feelings about him...and some other stuff which kinda freaked me out. guess its because of her constant disappearing act (coming and staying for a little while and then leaving for long periods of time) and her..happiness. o.O its been a while since ive actually seen her happy. Like..happy happy.

Or is she? anyway, because of the little RP/ chat we had, i was thinking about her....why was she so chipper? why, after all this time, she comes back out of the blue all happy like nothing happend? Is that her defense mechanism; running off for a long time until smoke clears then comes back to avoid questions, scolding and other things that will make her feel uncomfortable because she cant adapt? *sigh*

When i listen, she confuses me. When i actually sit and just listen to her soul..not her words, being lost in silence, i can just hear someting beautiful but caged, scared of something. But when i see her...hear her words that flow from her mouth or the way that she acts its something different. like a cloak... I try and learn to help her, to make her be better and not have the feelings that she has. however shell change or lash out like a wounded animal, not wanting help because she cant trust but knows that maybe deep down in her soul..she wants it.

me, being a true friend, try and help her...try and be there for her. her comfort, her gaurdian, like i would for any of my friends. I would like things to change, to make things better..but it cannot be done with just me. i need her help as well...but she keeps hurting me. My body is fine but my my heart, my soul has been damaged. Even as i speak that special muscle in my body is sewn many times over many scars but still has tears and bruises. the soul that brings out my personality; my pride, joy, and love has a broken wing that is mending but very slowly.

why must she torment me so? Maybe im tormenting myself as well.

RP issues..

Steven and I have started a special RP. Its like a mixture of Tarzan and Lion King; a goverment is abusing its power and a young woman with the help of a Tiger man comes in to change things.

Pet got in a bit of a fight with wolves but Mir came and save her...awww.. ^^

Mike has been turned human after going on a bit of a rampage with Yakki and having his wings ripped off. Hes trying to find a way to get his ultimate power unleashed.

A little bit of an Rp with charlie...actually he jsut started to repeat poetry/song lyrics and stated to scare me. O.o;

Papamom ( tianna's char) is trying to get back into the house and be with the kids but mother has something else to say about that and has brought out a bit of rules.

Quote of the day

I seem to be a verb.

-Buckminster Fuller

big news, small rock!

wow, two posts in a row! well im really really excited because i got a present...

a rock. yes, a rock. but not just any kind of rock...a rock from scotland! a scottish rock! one that likes to drink and dance and wear kilts! sadly, i dun know where to find rock clothing so it might be naked for a while.

Thres nothing super special about it other than its nationality, its about reddish black...really jagged and came from the mountains! yay!

I gave it a name...stewie.. ^__^ yup, stewie the rock! why? cuz Alex gave me the rock and Alex reminds me of Stewie from Family Guy... i could've named the rock Alex but ya know..that just be weird.

Senior School..

well finally it happend! im a senior! squee! ^___^ school isnt so bad, but its very tiring and have a looot of work. usually in math though.

I also hafta worry about my Senior Project. what is it gonna be? i actually waned it to be wen i wanna play the bass. ya know, the giant cello thingy. hehe..i cant wait. trying to see if i can get alexis to take me to the music shop so i can get a good deal on renting one.

Hmm...i dont really have much to say now..im kinda working on some goverment homework..maybe ill write a bit on the weekend. 'till then!


RP issues..

Flash from the past for Hikari! super fun!! maybe ill fill you in on her past.. aaaaannd...
Nick made something for him and Lara...wont tell..
Master (ronin dhampire) and i RPed a bit..hes been a bit of my counseler...listen to me and my problems. and for that...i thank him so much.

Quote of the day

Solitude is the place of purification

-Martin Buber