Friday, January 28, 2005

One whole year for blogspot!

Sad'i comes up into the site with an irritated look on his face. He hated to do these things...to do something he didnt want to do. Right now he could think of hundreds, thousands...millions of other things he could be doing. but not here..not now. He walks over to the laptop, cracks his knuckles and starts to write.

Since our....creator hasnt come back. I am here now to do something...important. Not to me really, but to these other...weak personas here.

He took in a deep breath, as if the was the hardest thing for him to write.

Today is the 1st anniversary of this Site, The Demon's fridge. After ... 123 posts on this damn site it has been one whole year. And they ...I guess me too...want to wish that this site stays strong. So..

Happy Birthday, demonfridgie.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

The lanterns go back on in the site as the fireflies went back to their post. A young woman then meanders inside the room. She looked like nique, walked like nique, even had the hair in pigtails like nique did. However two scars covered her left cheeck...

she blinked once and those once deep root beer eyes turned into a deep violet.

It was midnight, a child of the wolf and the moon; A persona of nique's. She represented the present..the current teenager version if Nique herself. It didnt seem like much now but it will be in a few years.

Slowly the teen slipped into the chair and started to post.

Well Nique's still gone so I went to school for her. Which isnt that bad. I mea.. I have her body..nothing really changes. It would be a big thing if Nikuumo or Sad'i went. Which reminds me Sad'i is in charge of the next post if Nique doesnt come back soon...

Speaking of our creator..shes doing fine. Shes feeling a bit energized last time I checked. She did come to post a thank you post to people who celebrated her b-day but was pretty much it...she called me too and told me about the Age of Aquarius? Dont know about that. sounds kinda fishy to me..

Anyway, Everything went well at school..well most stuff. It was a bit long even thought it was a late start wedsday. Also Nique's classes got switched around. She now goes to English 12 2nd per. and Theater 2 4th period. Which is a bit sad becuase she would need to make new friends. Who knows? It might get better.

The werewolf cracked her knuckles and thought for a moment..then started to write once again.

I was checking the mail for nique...and I got the xanga-subscritptions thingy. Everyone seemed..so sad. Well whoever wrote last night anyway. Either that or they were disturbed. I do get worried but there is nothing I can do unless they ask. all i can really do is hope that they find their way and get better...

Who knows? They might. Anyway, I dont have much to write anymore. So..Sad'i might be a bit lucky. He could write about the quiz Nique took a while back. I think that would be a good thing. yea.. So, until then...

*~= Midnight =~*
and with that the werewolf child got up and stretched once again. she yawned, scratched her lower back and left, going off to gnaw on the femur she got last night..
RP issues..
I statred to use Sad'i now in Rp..nothing much really. Nikuumo is still havin fun with Mewt.
Quote of the day.
"Is it okay to be sexually frustrated every hour on the hour?"
-Dominique

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Age of Aquarius.

Dominique had been travelling for a long while, though she was still in the presences of the city. she was now in Downtown Sacramento, listening to the blaring sounds of cars, the soft chit chat of people and also cooing of pigeons. But the sun has set over the horizon, the skies dyed with the soft colors of purple, dark pink and a bit of gold as stars took over. The young girl looked up but couldnt really see that much..so she decided to take another route.

After going through a building and take the elevator she was now on top of a sky scraper, looking up at the sky. It was cold up there..really cold, but she was clad in a big leather jacket, not to mention a long sleve white shirt and black pinstripe pants. she would survive. The wind blew , making her trenchcoat flap in the breeze and she smiled warmly, watching the sky get darker and darker. but as it did it seemed to get brighter too, as if the sunrise had come in such a short time. She turned around and gasped, seeing what it was...

The full moon.

It was huge, taking up a great deal of the sky, the giant orb a beautiful milk color. Its rays bathed the people and items below but they didnt take notice, going on about their lives..too wrapped up in themselves to care about the great phenomenon the cosmos had to offer. She looked down, shaking her head. She snapped her head back up at the moon upon hearing the loud bay of a wolf from teh distance. It seemed that some humans were paying attention....the beast inside them awaking.

Dominique watched the moon for the while as if she was awaiting transformation herself. She knew she would..or part of her would; Midnight, her wolf persona would rise up and prowl the streets in search of blood. While she thought of this, something else dawned on her and she spoke up out loud, only to herself.

"This is the first full moon of the year... the first full moon in Aquarius."

"Aye, and this signifies the Age of Aquarius." Another voice piped up behind her.

The young, dark girl turned around quickly to see who was behind her..actually having to look down. Standing in front of her at 5'2" was an elderly woman, green eyes full of wisdom. she was about in her 80's, face wrinkld yet eyes making you think different. Long tresses of white and grey cascaded down her back, a headband of feathers on top of her. she was wearing an elegant dark blue gown, the bottom covered with strange markings of animals and plants. In her hand was a staff. She looked like a normal old woman..perhaps from a Native reserve..but her ears were strnge; they were furry and gray as her hair....wolf ears. Nique smiled softly after calming down, knowing who it was.

"Grandmother Buscuit.." She said softly...

The elderly woman replied, walking up to the taller one as if she was some long lost grand-daughter. She spoke to her still, now looking up at the moon. Nique couldnt help but to look up as well.

"The Age of Aquarius is a sign of big changes" Buscuit started softly, one of her wolf ears wtiching."Really big changes. They have already started before the full moon. The tsunami, The inaguaration, the change of presidents in Plastine. All of this is a sign that even bigger changes are yet to come, little one. Have you felt them...? "

Dominique would only nod. Another gust of wind went by but they did not move, only their clothing.

"You have went through big changes as well, havent you? I shall not say them but you know what I speak of."

"Yes." The dark girl would reply, brown eyes looking brighter because of the moonlight. "I never thought it would happen..but it did."

Buscuit watched the moon for a few moments then looked to the taller one, smiling. "And the following years are going to be a big step for you, dear Aquarian. For you are now the age of an adult...you are fully ready to take on the changes and challenges without falling. You will be able to do it."

The two females looked at each other then the youngest one spoke up, raising an eyebrow.

"That sounds pretty corny."

That when she was hit with the staff of wisdom..and boy did it hurt. Buscuit smirked and spoke up once again while the dark woman was rubbing her head vigorously, tryin to get rid of the pain.

"The age of aquarius is at hand, Dominique. Take care of what you need to do; do not forget the ones you hold dear and more importantly, your inner child."

The creator looked up, about to give that old bag a peice of her mind but by the time she did she found out that Buscuit was gone. She was alone once again.

http://www.Beliefnet.com/frameset.asp?boardID=79805&pageloc=/story/159/story_15985_1.html

Read and be amazed.

Quote of the day

"I will not stop until i get the answers that I CRAVE."

-uncle Jess


Sunday, January 23, 2005

A bit of thank yous all around..

For those who read my site previously Thurs. the 2oth was my birthday where i turned 18. However Thurs. was...ya know..a weekday so i didnt get a lot of presents until the weekened. So i decide that now is a good time to give out my thank yous for my presents.

So Thank you,

- Tasha, for the Pinkie stuffie, the bath stuff, the DVDs and the cards.

- Zach, for the Burned Green Day and Crunk Juice CDs, the Stuff animal St Benard, the purse, the and the card.

- Mike, for the candle, the day-by-day planner, the necklace (That matches my earrings, mind you) and the card

- Tanya and Scott, for taking me to Joe's Crab Shack and paying for my dinner. However, I will not forgive you guys for making me do that damned dance with the crabs.

-Brittney, for the scrunchies, the little grooming set, and for letting me listen to Ciara.

- Grandma Karen, for the $ 10.

- Mom, for the $20 and the Coffee.

- Grammy, for the $100

- to my friends and acquaintences who didnt get me jack but still remembered my birthday and gave me hugs. I appreciate it...

As for those who didnt do anything...SCREW YOU!! *Chuckles softly* Just kidding. Try a bit harder next time..

RP issues

Jou was pissed beyond believe and Seto Kaiba...made it worse.

Sparrow played games with his son and scared the shit out of him..but that give him time to be with his love.


Quote of the day

"strength, courage, and wisdom..its been inside of me..all along."
-lyric from india.arie's song






Thursday, January 20, 2005

Happy birthday!!!

Well its a really special birthday being posted hered on the demon's fridge. Mines!! Not to mention a few of my personas. Today is my 18th birthday...sure, all birthdays are special..but this one is mega special becuae.... IM LEGAL!! *evil cackle*

So yes, happy birthday to me.

RP issues

none

Quote of the day

"Happy Happy Birthday, from all of us to you! We wish it was our birthday so we'd be happy too!"

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

One more day…

While Nikuumo was dressed up in an apron and a hat like a maid another young woman came in. She looked just like Nique, except that her eyes were a deep purple and two slashes were on her left check. She smiled gently to the young demon and whistled in a provocative way, causing him to look from his task and blush deeply.

“H-hey, Midnight..” He said softly, still blushing. She said nothing back, just a soft chuckle. In her hand was a piece of paper…a letter from Nique. She went to the laptop to post it word for word…

One more day until finals. One more day of being a 17 year old. One more day of life. Today has been fairly good so far. Its pretty easy since I’m doing finals tomorrow so its nothing but review. I actually finished my homework…hopefully well be turning in books soon.

This morning...was kinda strange though. My friends were pulling me about the halls today because they were trying to avoid Tianna. But why…? I mean, I’m not doing anything at all to avoid her… I don’t even care and they’re more flustered than I am. I guess its because I was a while back. *Shrugs* Anyway they all turned their backs towards Tianna and Alex’s direction and Mike clung to my arm like there was no tomorrow. That hurt a lot.

I thought that was pretty rude so I’m gonna write a letter of apology. *Shrugs* the best I can do.

Hmm… Been cracking jokes on American Idol too. I usually don’t watch reality shows…but I found myself watching it yesterday since my lil cousins came to spend the night.

It was hella funny!! I know I shouldn’t be bagging on people…but I couldn’t help it

Anyway, dear site.. love ya and miss ya lots. I’ll come back soon...but I still need a bit of time away. Oh, and sorry dear readers for not posting on Hikari in a while. My comp is fixed and after I get my internet back on it I will come and post. Until then


RP issues

Nikuumo and Sparrow had quite a bit of fun with Mewt…*coughs* Also it seems that the neko has a bit of a stalker…

Abbie and Tessa had a bit of a Shape-shifter duel.

Updates in Yorido: check Sparrow’s site.


One more day…

While Nikuumo was dressed up in an apron and a hat like a maid another young woman came in. She looked just like Nique, except that her eyes were a deep purple and two slashes were on her left check. She smiled gently to the young demon and whistled in a provocative way, causing him to look from his task and blush deeply.

“H-hey, Midnight..” He said softly, still blushing. She said nothing back, just a soft chuckle. In her hand was a piece of paper…a letter from Nique. She went to the laptop to post it word for word…

One more day until finals. One more day of being a 17 year old. One more day of life. Today has been fairly good so far. Its pretty easy since I’m doing finals tomorrow so its nothing but review. I actually finished my homework…hopefully well be turning in books soon.

This morning...was kinda strange though. My friends were pulling me about the halls today because they were trying to avoid Tianna. But why…? I mean, I’m not doing anything at all to avoid her… I don’t even care and they’re more flustered than I am. I guess its because I was a while back. *Shrugs* Anyway they all turned their backs towards Tianna and Alex’s direction and Mike clung to my arm like there was no tomorrow. That hurt a lot.

I thought that was pretty rude so I’m gonna write a letter of apology. *Shrugs* the best I can do.

Hmm… Been cracking jokes on American Idol too. I usually don’t watch reality shows…but I found myself watching it yesterday since my lil cousins came to spend the night.

It was hella funny!! I know I shouldn’t be bagging on people…but I couldn’t help it

Anyway, dear site.. love ya and miss ya lots. I’ll come back soon...but I still need a bit of time away. Oh, and sorry dear readers for not posting on Hikari in a while. My comp is fixed and after I get my internet back on it I will come and post. Until then


RP issues

Nikuumo and Sparrow had quite a bit of fun with Mewt…*coughs* Also it seems that the neko has a bit of a stalker…

Abbie and Tessa had a bit of a Shape-shifter duel.

Updates in Yorido: check Sparrow’s site.


Tuesday, January 18, 2005

A bit of time, a bit of writing.

After a while the site light has been dimming out. Dust has collected and instead of the usual moths fireflies come in. But soon Nikuumo, the guardian of the site starts coming in with a feather duster in his tail and fire in his eyes. He starts to batt at the fireflies with his paws, meanwhile dusting off certain posts, files and thoughts that were left behind.

“Shoo, Shoo!!” The demon exclaimed and soon the place was nice and clean, the fireflies going to certain boxes…thin boxes. They were lanterns, made of thin paper of different colors; blue, black, purple, and jade green. The fireflies went there as if they knew their positions and soon the dim site became a bit brighter. Nikuumo stood there and let out a soft sigh of relief; he was pleased.

Slowly he slinked over towards a small area. It was a desk with a small laptop and a comfy chair; the area where Nique puts down her posts. He sat down and got to work.

Well, I guess its my turn to do the site. So here I am. Nique is probably off in Argentina or something… or maybe the Dominican Republic. She said she was on a spiritual trip…maybe its also a trip in search of her roots. Including her father.

The site is doing well… especially after those bad comments left on the site; Makes my job a bit easier. I’m the one who helps Nique out with such comments. I didn’t do much though.. I know. But I’m the one who puts down the comments anyway, whether good or bad. Kinda hurt me to post down such things. However such….”actions” ...were taken care of and now Nique went off to … ‘recharge her batteries.’ She does that after going over such things, as do I.

I’ll be here, as I always have been. *Smiles gently* So no worries. I would write more but…what is there to write? A few things that have happened in the Rp world… I had…love for a while. However, it didn’t last for very long. It was nice while it lasted. Our new friend, Sparrow, has been causing a muck and making more friends as usual. However he does miss his love lots…

Yorido has accepted the Neko, as put last time on his site. I gotta go and update. Pfft…he can go and update!

Well, I guess ill go. Until then… Nikuumo.


And with that the demon got up. He knew it wasn’t much but what else was there to write if the creator wasn’t there?

Rp issues

None really, sorry.

Quote of the day.

"Um..seriously. I think you need to move out of your mom's basement. Its pathetic!"

-P.J



Friday, January 14, 2005

Wake up call-- in search of truth.

*the scene was dark..black. then a small spotlight comes up and floods the middle of the site. Everything else was dark. Soft footsteps could be heard and then after a moment a young man comes into veiw. He was a good 5'10, black hair falling over his face an cascading down his shoulder. He was dark, black, golden eyes looking forward...to the reader. Fox ears took place of what would be human ears and also a long, orange, bushy tail was behind him. It wasnt wagging too much though. He was clad in a black hooded sweatshirt and dark blue jeans, paws in his pockets. He was silent, looking forward and then he sighed gently, closing his eyes*

Hello... I'm sure your expecting someone else but that person is gone. Went on a trip...sorry for the inconvinence. If you guys dont know me..and I'm sure most of you dont, I'm Nikuumo ... Nikuumo Agori. I'm a fox demon..and the gaurdian of this site.

I usually dont speak out until i feel i need to ..and right now is the time. To the people that were brought here...you know the screen name blackcatsparrow... Well..theres a few things you need to know.

Sparrow-mun... is not what you think. Sparrow-mun...is a girl. Its not Dominick..Its Dominique.

Some people might not care, I know this... and for those I thank you whole heartedly for not being crossed. However there will be some who will be pissed and feeling betrayed for this behavoir or action she had taken. So i am here to talk to you on Nique's behalf while shes away.

Nique feels extremely horrible on what she has done..lying to you about her gender. At first it was harmless but she noticed that there were some she had gotten so attached to...and she felt like she couldnt lie anymore. So she wanted me to tell you this...

No. She didnt lie on anything else. Whatever she told any of you guys she meant with all of her heart. The only thing she lied was her gender...nothing more. She truly is 17. Her birthday is really on Jan. 20. And she truly cares for you more than anything. If you told her a secret, she kept it . If you told her your fears she kept that as well and put it into consideration. Only one lie she told..and she regrets it whole heartedly.

And so that is why she brought me out here to tell the truth. If you dont want to talk to her or Rp with her then thats understandable. She would take it with no complaints whatsoever. However if you want to talk to her just to yell and scold at her as well then thats cool too. She'll take it. "i deserve it anyway." ...thats what she says.

I know this seems weird..that it was only something about gender and a small lie. I mean..roleplaying is nothing but playing someone your not right...? well she still feels bad. So she wanted me to tell you.... why me? I mean, I'm just a character ...a roleplaying character she created... well she didnt have the heart right now for she chokes on her tears thinking about it. She told one person, didnt go well...so she was really uncertain about telling everyone else on her list. Please forgive her.

*Nikuumo looks out into the darkness, seeing nique behind teh curtains, not saying a word but sniffles could be heard*

She...and I ...are really sorry about this.

Rp issues

none really. i didnt have the heart to roleplay. I was working on one with Fuega using Sad'i. Not too bad...for a psychotic killer.

Quote of the day

"Time passes, people move. Like a river's flow, it never ends. A childish mind will turn to noble ambition. Young love will become deep affection. The clear water's surface reflects growth. Now listen to the Serenade of water to reflect upon yourself."
-Sheik

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Breathe again...?

Well i have truly, truly decided to stay away from Tianna now. I told her that I couldnt really hang with her... I couldnt talk to her or anything. It..just wasnt working out. I wont need to tell you the details..what she did becuase its all in my site. No need for repeating.

Anyway... Im going to go off and try and breathe again, going to get some things situated in my own life. Another spiritual trip. So for a while my persona's will take good care of my site. I will stop and work on my Hikari story... I did promise to work on it last weekened and I didnt. Im sorry for that.

I will also make a post on where I go and stuff...so mini stories here and there. ^^ Just going to steer away from real life for a bit...

Well, till i come back all of you take care...


= Dominique =
Owner of The demon's fridge
RP issues..
Rain and Sparrow are training and as on this site I went on a trip away from Mike. Just needed to find warmer pastures.
I wasnt able to Rp for a while though becuase I'm helping Tsut-mun get over her heartbreak.
Other news
For my faithful Rpers and readers alike..if it takes me forever and a day to reply it is becuae im playing ms. counselor. I might not even rp at all. I dunno... im thinking of taking a bit of a break from rping. So if i tell you tha' im not in the mood.. im sorry. It will only be for a while.
Quote of the day
"It's not so much finding the right woman as it is finding the right attitude"
-Martin Braithwaite

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

*gentle chuckle*

My mom left me a post on my site today. Can ya believe it? Out of all the people who visit (and dont visit) my mom comes and leaves me a post. And i thought tha's cool...

but yea..mom's know wise words. And has opened my mind to what I must do. Soo.. Yea.. know what i need to do. Thanx.

Rp issues

None really, sorry. Not a lot anyway. Just got on the comp.

Quote of the day

"Wisdom is required less to see what's wrong than what's right."
-Martin Braithwaite

Monday, January 10, 2005

Actions speak louder than words.

Today, I'm actually in a good mood. I dont know why, I just am. I know that there are thigns to take care of. Some problems that are going on but there is nothing I can really do. I know I'm doing my part.

*Cracks knuckles* And after talking to my council I'm doing a few wrong things. Also reading my comments I know what I should do... *Smirks*

But!! I think ill wait. Gotta fix a few more kinks out there. *Sits in a big leather arm chair, rocking in it a bit, kicking her feet up on a desk*

But yea, thanks for the comments to people online and off... I'll tell you my decisions in just a little while.

Rp issues

Mike and I started a new RP. Man, were running out of stuff. But this one is starting off pretty good. it has a bit of a 1920 background. My characters a singer and Mike's is a mafia member. cool, huh?

Jounouchi was mad at Seto for lying but he knew why. Now Seto is stuck with something he really soesnt want to do ... go on a date with a girl.

Been playing as Yami Yuugi for a while. Pretty fun. Didnt think it would work.

Other news

fixed up my xanga..louds more like what its name is..Land of Dreams. Check it out!!

www.xanga.com/foxgaurdianofice .

Quote of the day

"When you want someone to say or do something and they dont...they just did."
-My mom.
Whats wrong with gettign a quote from my own mommy..? ^^


Saturday, January 08, 2005

Magical Moment...

Well it seems that things are starting to be well...hopefully. I wont really now until later. If it does work... I'll tell you. Promise.

But now I guess I want to talk about my future... I still want to be a magjor in the arts but on my free time... I know what i want to be..

A flash animator!! O_O tha' would be awesome..

Of course I'll need a better computer...Flash program....a scanner and a microphone.. >>;

Oh..and a team of voice actors. But that will be easy! My school; duh!! But yea.. I do need a few supplies. Which I will work for!!

And with the help of some friends I can do it. I can do anything! *empowered voice*

Rp issues

Jou got beat up by his drunken father and so Seto went to go and save him. Now the blonde was almost on the verge of death but the brunette took him under his scaly wing and is taking care of his love.

Quote of the day

"Yes..I'll have a glass of KILL SONIC! I mean...Apple Juice"
-Shadow

Friday, January 07, 2005

...... *Sigh*

I was reading the post I wrote yesterday.. Wow. I was really mad...and I just wrote out all my anger and my desires in such a manner... And I kinda feel bad.

But all the stuff I wrote is true. I want those things to happen so I wont take my words back. However, I shouldnt have said them when I was angry.

It seems that I'm just repeating myself...that I'm going to the same cycle because of it. I'm just tired of it...

I checked my whole site today...All of teh archives and it seems that I have quite a few posts that say the same stuff. What I want done...and it just gets to me how Tianna will just...ignore it and then disappear which I dont want.

Shes running away. Shes running from problems and it doesnt help. It makes them worse. What was once a small problem of 'not being around as much as I'd like' has turned into this frenzy of pain, and mixed emotions.

I want it to stop.And i keep going back on my word about how I wouldnt see Tianna or talk to her if she wont changes. It hurts what she does...her running away hurts me. And to get away from it she runs off once again... and then comes back when she feels things are better and theyre not...

So ... I wrote her a letter and told her to read my site. And im saying this for the last time... the last.

Tianna, I want you to get things done. I want you to make things better..make choices, fix things...make them better. Its going to take a while...its not going to be easy but it has to be done.

while you do this I dont want to see you. I'll talk to you online, I cant avoid you there. I cant avoid you at school. But I wont have much to say and I'm going to be a bit distance...just think of me as a friend whos there..but then is not.

And also when your actually ready to try this friendship..when your actually ready to mend things up and not run away.... everythings fixed..then you can come to me. Dont give in...dont just come just to see me and then leave again.

Either stay and try ...try to make things better ... or dont come back at all. Or next time you come to me I'll walk past you ... next time you IM me, I'll block you....next time you call me I'll hang up.

I've never been so serious in all my life.

RP issues

Mike and I started something but.. *cough* I had to go to bed..hehe.. or rather he went to bed before me.

Victor and I were doing stuff to get rid of our hunger...Wrestling!!!!

Other news

Since its supposed to rain almost all weekend I believe I'll have time and energy to work on In Searh of Mending. Research paper's done too..a lot off of my chest..for a while.

Quote of the day

"I wouldn't mind if you want to kill me, but I might struggle a bit."
-Trowa


Thursday, January 06, 2005

...!!!

I'm tired of it! I just am.. I'm tired of trying to get things fixed, to get things finally solved and then stuff happens. If you guys dont know its the whole red head thing.

I told myself that it was over... I told myself that I didnt want her around if she cant change..for shes the kind of person I'd rather die than to become... I dont know, its just the stuff she does.

And then yet, I want her to be my friend.. I want things back to the way they were..where we used to hang out and stuff..

But at the rate things are going its like I should forget it.

She tells me that I need to come up as well.. That i need to go and help fix things. But thats what ive been trying to do! Ever since shit was messed up! I mean the first time she yelled at me and ran off to get from giving me a simple apology ive been trying to catch up and get thigns fixed. To see what I have done to make she sure she doesnt do it again. Also to make sure that I call on her for bullshit like that..

But she runs off..cause she thinks its 'better for me?!' What the fuck?! You cant tell me whats better for me! I'm the one in pain, god dammit! Fuck, At least come up to me and say that your going!

Her being gone and things not getting FIXED is whats making it worse! Things getting fixed; Things being solved where we dont hafta really be friends if we dont want to but we actually know that the tension is gone is what is better for me! I cant fucking live with so much tension..so much hidden stuff were she nor I can say. *sighs heavily*

Oh my god! Im just pissed! She does it again. She says I wont understand, That i wont get it .. well fucking teach me! Talk to me abotu it! dont care if it takes 4 minutes or 4 hours! i want to know. I WANT TO GET IT! So i dont hafta feel this same crap over and over and over. I listen! I'm not like others..

I also want her to stop torturing herself. Shes 'torn'? well sew your ass back up. Dont run off, dont keep yourself in that same position... do something! And if you cant do it alone thats what friends and family are for..advice!

Even I cant do it alone. No one can.

But yea...thats just getting to me. *Sighs heavily* I feel better though. I just want tianna to get it in her head that she needs to get some old habits away. One..running away or going away from a problem. Just closing your eyes and taking a trip doesnt mean that the problem will dissipate. Fix it. And dont come back acting all happy when, for starters, your not or when you know that the other people arent happy as well.

Fix.

Rp issues.

none. Again.

Quote of the day

"Let me love you."
- Mario

Happy birthday bro!!

Well after about...um... 18 years of your crap im here to say happy birthday. Your now 29...very old. lol, jk.

This ish for my brother, mont mont whos birthday ish today! cant forget!!

So have a happy birthday and many wishes..and whores. lol

Rp issues

Lady Tsutnami was in a great mood and that made me happy...probably becasue i was pmssin' but whos complaining?

Other than that..nothing.

Quote of the day

"Fuck you for loving me."
-Dark Mousy
Musical Cleaning pt.2

When Hikari got outside in the back, the group was still singing. The sun which was once blanketed by clouds was now starting to shine down on the little home and the group. Nique was singing, raking up leaves in the backyard, using the rake as a mike.

"You get the gray skies outta my way...."

The tigress and the werewolf popped out from their own piles of leaves, singing in unison.

Then Midnight grabs the rake and sings, a huge grin on her face. She looked like he had a halo from all of the sunlight coming over her, her violet eyes getting brighter.

"You make the sun shine brighter than doris day! Turn a bright spark into a flame...."

Nikuumo and Nique went back-to-back, being background singers this time.

"Yea! Yea!"

Lil tiger slid over to Hikari and grabbed her hand, pulling her away from teh sliding glass door to have fun with cleaning. She was singing as well, grinning

"My beats per minute never been the same!"

Nique , Midnight, and Lil Tiger were all working to put all fallen leaves and other trash into black bags while Nikuumo was sweeping the bricks and steps. Hikari had moved up there. While the fox demon worked he was singing to her, that wig on his head now but it was so messed up.

"’cause you’re my lady, I’m your fool....Makes me crazy When you act so cruel..."

With one rough sweep that whole pile of dirt that was swept up from the steps was brought down into the dirty area near the tree. It went out and forward, looking like a tainted shooting star...

And got all over the creator..

She dusted herself off and glared a bit but then midnight went to comfort Nique, grabbing her hand and then singing to her.

"C’mon baby, Let’s not fight....We’ll go dancing..."

The creator shook her head one more time, dust flying everywhere. She grinned and everyone sung in unison, including Hikari.

"And everything will be alright!"

Everyone then started to pitch in, putting trash in bags, sweeping, dancing and singing all the while. It was like a magical moment, where nothing could go wrong..were everything was alright for once.

Wake me up before you go go...Don’t leave me hanging on like a yo-yo....Wake me up before you go go....I don’t wanna miss it when you hit that high...."

Nique went over to Hikari and grabbed her hands, starting to dance with her. Meanwhile everyone else were hauling bags of trash out to the green waste container. They were grinning, glad to do something together and actually get stuff done.

"Wake me up before you go go,’cause I’m not planning on going solo.Wake me up before you go go,Take me dancing tonite...."

When Midnight finished her part she zoomed past her creator and grabbed the angel by the arm. With great agility she hopped up to the top of the gazebo that was in the backhard, showing her the veiw. It was breathtaking, teh clouds still aroudn but sunlight peeking out here and there, making it look like it was heaven sent. She then sung loudly, as if she was baying at the moon.

"I wanna hit that high!!"

Soon they were all finished and they just played around in the back. They sung the chourus, clipping leaves, playing a bit of tag. The day had ended perfectly, as did the musical. Hikari was feeling totally great and for once, she forgot her problems.


Rp issues..

None.

Quote of the day.

"I have a fetish for personality"






Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Big plans...same cycle...?

Well new years and things are being planned out. Im so excited! Me and my friend smade plans this morning for college

It seems that most of us are going to CRC for two years (or more ). Mike and I are going for two years and then together were going to San Fransisco. But were talking about now.. i mean..two years.

Were all planning to stay together in a apartment or maybe a home..all 6 of us.. 2 in each room. its gonna be Tasha, Mike, Jessica, One of Mike's friends, Brian and I. *chuckles* I dont know who thats going to be but everyone says that I will find the perfect one in college... Im a bit excited abotu that as well. Jessica will too of course!

were going to live together and all get jobs. Were planning to get jobs that switch with times and stuff.. for example 1/2 will go to school during the day and work at night and vice vers for the other 1/2. However sunday is supposed to be free for us.

Were going to share the bills... not have phones (except cell phones.) , have each of our own compies with DSL and even have cable where were going to watch t.v. together like a real family. Mike, Jessica, and I all agreed we will all come together every night to watch Teen Titans! lol!

Mike wanted to make sure we have thick walls... We dont want to ear what would be going on. >> ya know..adult stuff. *Cough*

But im soo excited! i hope this comes true! Nothing better than friends coming together like family.

Also some things are happening. I told Yami that it was over for a while..that ididnt wnt to see her really... i mean, i told her i would talk to her in school and also online (Since i cant run away online really) but it seems that shes trying to get back in. I dont know... im just starting to feel weird. De Ja Vou... So its like the same cycle all over again. I dotn know..maybe im being pessimistic. Maybe things will change. But I am going to stand my ground and just talk to her on the comp and school..if i ever see her...

If your reading this Tianna... Im sorry that your going through some stuff... but i dont think i can help you much other than listen....forgive me. When things get better maybe we can be better. Maybe.

RP issues

Jounouchi and Seto are really hitting it off well. Another dueling tournament is coming up and The older Kaiba was supposed to enter but he didnt want to risk dueling Jou and losing his love. Soo... yea... *blush*

Also seto has been having a visit by some distant cousin...but...i didnt think Seto Kaiba have other Family other than Noa and Mokuba. And also Jou now *smirks* but whatever. Im going along with it..playin' my character..

That has been going okay.. Seto mostly stays in his room by himself as usual. Not wanting to be bothered so the cousin usually hangs out with Mokuba and his friend, Nikuu.

With a friend I have been playing Yami Yuugi.. ^^ fun fun.

Sparrow has been in many situatios with many storylines soo.. *Shrugs* I dont think I should talk abotu tehm. People would get confused and then get all pissy. Big news for the neko though...he's in Yorido...and Rp community. Sign up!!

http://yorido.bravehost.com/

Jamie... please do it for me!!! O_O

Quote of the day

"Stop making me repeat myself! Its bad for my health!"
- Duo Maxwell

Monday, January 03, 2005

I had something to say but i kinda forgot..really. *blink blink* i'm sorry for the inconvenience..

Wow, It seems that i use demonfridgie when im at school. Which is no real problem. Mrs. Grasso doesnt seem to mind.

Which reminds me what I forgot!!! yay!!

Well, brokenhikari has been put on hold for a while. Not only have I have a bit of a writers block with it some thigns came up and I havent really been in the mood.

The real Yami is truly gone. I had to let her go.

And so I'm kinda recooperating from that. It wasnt as painful as I thought it was..actually it wasnt really painful at all. i guess its because i've been through it before. So..its no real big deal.

*Sighs* But yea, So Broken Hikari will be finished!! soon..when I feel a bit better. Until then..

RP issues
Seto and Katsuya have been hitting it off pretty good. They became a couple... Jou has left his home to be with the Kaiba brothers.. However one night he kneed Seto in the crotch... REVENGE!!


Sparrow hasnt been in much. I signed him up for Yorido so http://creativepsycho.blogspot.com is for him and what happens in Yoridio. Other things that happen that might happen in yahoo or something will be posted here.

But this weekend..not a lot. He met this one new girl named fuega... ^^shes an elf!!

Nikuumo has been used in the RP world as well..for once.

Quote of the day

"....What the *bleep* ?!"
-Pilsbury doughboy in bloopers
Poetry from the soul

this is a project I had to do for English 12. Make a poem that showed two sides of us. It can be good or bad... yin yang. I did what people see of me..and the real me when I'm by myself


The tiger
Spazzy, excited,
Bouncy little tigger
Yet mellow when need be
Strong
Strong for others, strong for friends
For they are her prized jewels in this world
Bands together like a pack
A pride. Very few but still together like family
Bright colors. Open-minded, unique
Showing her creativity, imagination though her stripes
Happy pictures, vibrant, speaking for itself
Sunshine, clouds, frolics
Through Never-ending field of green
The energetic goofball to some, the optimist.


The fairy
Quiet, meek
An introvert in her own forest
Yet comes out when need be
Observent
Watchful of others, watchful for herself
For it is hard to trust for this one
Rather to stand alone than be by herself
A solitary creature. By herself, No one else
Dark colors. universal, but still unique
Wings that show her apart from others yet she doesn’t
Barley seen Quiet like her writings
Moonlight, Clouds, walks
Trough the unknown desert in the cold rain
The wise philosopher to some, the lost soul
Quote of the day
"She was such a nice little girl....now shes such an ingrate."
-Hoppusai