confusion?!

yup once again i'm suffering from it. and a bit of depression..i gotta get myself checked. ::sighs::

But yea, this week has been pretty heptic; finals and issues with friends and what not.

And this weekend was HELL!! lil bad ass kids, i felt bad snapping at them... ::Shudders:: The yakki in me just...popped out! Anyway, if i have enough time i might come back to this blog and tell you about it a bit more

::best Ark voice:: uuggghh...soo sleeepy.... cant even type anything. Just wanted to say hi and i didnt forget bout all my loved ones. Gotta think later.... ::lays down:: g'night..

you stay out of my way, ill stay out of yours..

I'm doing a bit better after the lil attack from DL and i'm glad i went to school! My pantomime is almost done! My partner is Hilary, who's really cool. Shes went to go and get a new haircut, which is really cute. People are getting short haircuts lately..makes me a bit nervous.

Everyone in my posse were discussing about the rest of the group that seemed to strayed away. It seems that they believe were talking bad stuff behind stacey's back which is nothing more than the truth. ::shrugs:: i dont know, its just weird. We were also talking about how true friends we were...Zach, Tashie and I havent been in an argument since we met each other....NEVER! ive known zach since 4th grade too! Tashie.....9th? But thats still a miracle, ne? Other's....ya....fight fight fight, more than others.

>>....I read the red-head's blog. Its...a bit disturbing.... ::sighs:: but it seems that shes like that half of the time. I hope that she finds balance and happiness soon. I try my best to help but it seems that i either get a bruise, get another stitch in my heart or go back to square one. However, i'm still here for her no matter what, but i'm learning. Should i try to IM her? i...guess. ::shrugs::

Charlie's helping me be better too! ^___^ he makes me happy ...sometimes. He gets worry about me too...I NEED ONE STAMP! ANYONE READ THIS BUY ME STAMPS NOW!! >.< lol! jk. I'll just find a way to get one for him...perhaps...prostitution?

RP issues...

Um...last night. there was a Legend of Zelda and a Bloody Roar moment. Then I played Chase with Charlie. Is it my turn to be it?

Broken Hikari

So tired. so tired and sleepy and hurt. Ive just been thinking of so much. Of friends, family, what will happen to me. ::sigh:: i dont even know what to do anymore. I'm just...done for now. Ill see ya guys later.

Cool feelings, Warm Sun

Today was a nice, slow day. As usual, we didnt go to church, nor did i clean my room like a I vowed.

However, i was thinking of some things that bothered me this week. My mom reminded me of something too... It just makes me worry 'bout the red-head even more. Sometimes she thinks its pity..

Other than that it was pretty slow...RPed...listened to Tarzan and worked on Empowerment Homework.

back with news from Ashland

well after a long time im back! sorry all my loyal readers, i didnt mean to be gone for so long. I kept a log while i stayed in Oregon!!

Tuesday, March 2nd

We left for Ashland at 3: 15 --after school. It took about 6 hours, including one stop at Ashland. It was a fun ride since we played games and everything, but once we got there, it was night time and we couldnt realy see snow. I didnt see snow in Ashland so i was a bit disappointed.

We made it to Ashland aroung 10:15 however. We stayed at the Columbia Hotel, which was built like somwhere from the 1920's...truly. Theres a sink in your room! wtf? no shower?! guess we had to share. My roomate which was Tianna, which was cool...

Wedsday, March 3rd

Tuesday for me was nothing but exploration. i had to get used to everything in the extremely small town. I did get angry/sad at tianna early in the morning because we went to all the places shewanted eat and i didnt get to pick any place. I mean, she said that i would get to pick lunch but she started to brat out. ::Sighs:: hate when she does that.

But it was okay i suppose. That day we got to see a tour, The Visit, and the Comedy of Errors!

Thursday, March 4th

I was soo tired from last night and all the exploration so I was twice as tired when i woke up. The beds are as hard as rock too so it made me soo stiff. I did make new friends though! theres Tarin, Solace, and lil Oni! Shes so cute and lil, reminds me of an anime character. She also knows about a whole bunch of animes..reminds me on how i need to go Anime Shopping!

Tianna......was acting like a brat as well. Again. God how it got to me! >.< i dont know why!! I mean, we went to go and see this play and i wanted to use a quater she was playing with so we can pay a bill and also i didnt hafta reach in my pocket to grab it but she bratted out. Whatever though, dont hafta worry about such small things. But still it pisses me off on how she acted that night. makes me think about what my friends say sometimes.. ::Sighs::

Time to leave- Friday, March 5th

We loaded the bus with our luggage at 9:30, having until 12:30 to shop around. I only had 17 bucks so i went to get Oni some beads, grab some candy for home and grabbed som fingerless gloves for myself.I was still tired--both physically and emotionally-- but i still held on. The ride for home wasnt as fun as getting there, actually a bit more annoying. People were annoyed with Tianna's singing, like i was a bit..but it was only because i was tired. Also i was a bit pissed on how she acted like nothing happened. People were flashing cameras (or throwing them at me) and that urked me. But i was glad to be home. I probably will get over my anger soon as i get a bit of rest and draw some pics of Yakki-ken Hentai.. lol

Alex...why the heck was he waiting for Tianna for a freakin' hour? I wonder how the red-head felt about that.....

RP issues
well once I got home, I immeadiatly went to everyone to apologize for my absence. I was so tired, needed sleep. and i think i need some more....

The journey awaits

Dear friends, family, loved ones, and hoes...lol!jk. I'm going to be gone for the rest of the week and i wont be back until friday. But....I'm probably going to be suffering from jet lag so i wont post my adventure until saturday morning. where am I going?

::techno music::

"i cant wait
wanna see
how this trip is gonna be
Just a drive away
From teh memories that is here to stay"

"we can make them last foreva, babay
Our joy will stand the test of time
in the middle of nowhere ill be waiting
For him to be all mi~~ne!"

"I'm going to Ashland
In the middle of the night
and it feels like i'm somewhere above the sky
i-i-i-i!!"

"Lets take a chance and try plays baby
No i'm not kiddin' round
Cuz youll know that Shakespere will be alive
Until the end of time"

RP issues
from now..no. Its 6:30 in the morning. From last night, yes!!! Go michael!! WOOOOO!!! love the goin' away gift.