Onegai...
Well today didnt even start well it seems. Its only 9:10 and im depressed and a bit irritated. My mom is not happy that i will not leave the GSA.. everyone else is hapy for me but to have your mom disappointed.. it still gets to you.
Everyone thinks im doing something well... even my roomate. But my mom is still going against teh religious thing.. *sigh* she doesnt understand that its not a choice.. people do not decide to be it..its just..how it is.
Also Tianna..she pounced on me today. I dont know if she saw my website or if she just not listening to what i ask for. Im not trying to be mean..im not trying to be cruel or rash (although shes done that to me many times. ) its just..she has some things to..um..learn; about friendships..and ...people in general. issues to take care of, even with herself. and mostly becasue of that..it hurts me. the things she says, the stuff she does, it wears me down and just..hurts me a lot..or makes me angry. I want her to take care of the stuff first so me and her can actually hang out without getting mad at eachother or feel like we hafta walk on eggshells just to be around one another.
I know im not doing anything wrong... except accepting what she does even if it hurts me or others..and im stopping that now.
so please... dont see me as mean or cruel...im not trying to hurt her ... i just..want things fixed..truly fixed. and the best thing to do is stay away until they are. Give her time until she learns. And if she doesnt *inhales* then i guess it wasnt meant to be...
It's not like im waiting for her..not like those romantic movies..just...staying away for a while, doing my own thing and letting her do what shes gotta do...
RP issues..
no RP..too tired. well i had a quick one with mike..but i was basically checkin up on him.. it seems that he's still out of it. I think hes just tired..
Quote of the day
"sleep dwell upon thy eyes, peace on thy breast! For i would to sleep and peace so sweet to rest!"
Well today didnt even start well it seems. Its only 9:10 and im depressed and a bit irritated. My mom is not happy that i will not leave the GSA.. everyone else is hapy for me but to have your mom disappointed.. it still gets to you.
Everyone thinks im doing something well... even my roomate. But my mom is still going against teh religious thing.. *sigh* she doesnt understand that its not a choice.. people do not decide to be it..its just..how it is.
Also Tianna..she pounced on me today. I dont know if she saw my website or if she just not listening to what i ask for. Im not trying to be mean..im not trying to be cruel or rash (although shes done that to me many times. ) its just..she has some things to..um..learn; about friendships..and ...people in general. issues to take care of, even with herself. and mostly becasue of that..it hurts me. the things she says, the stuff she does, it wears me down and just..hurts me a lot..or makes me angry. I want her to take care of the stuff first so me and her can actually hang out without getting mad at eachother or feel like we hafta walk on eggshells just to be around one another.
I know im not doing anything wrong... except accepting what she does even if it hurts me or others..and im stopping that now.
so please... dont see me as mean or cruel...im not trying to hurt her ... i just..want things fixed..truly fixed. and the best thing to do is stay away until they are. Give her time until she learns. And if she doesnt *inhales* then i guess it wasnt meant to be...
It's not like im waiting for her..not like those romantic movies..just...staying away for a while, doing my own thing and letting her do what shes gotta do...
RP issues..
no RP..too tired. well i had a quick one with mike..but i was basically checkin up on him.. it seems that he's still out of it. I think hes just tired..
Quote of the day
"sleep dwell upon thy eyes, peace on thy breast! For i would to sleep and peace so sweet to rest!"
-Romeo
i dunno..sounded dirty. lol
posted by Lady Sad'e at 9:04 AM
1 Comments:
::shurgs:: You know I could say things.. and.. I cant say things. Somewhere in this world.. yeah things suck.. like my mom told me.." suck it up kid, and get the fuck over it.. there are better things in life to look at."So Ive kinda listend to that lately. Avoiding things in life gets you nowhere.. Smack the shit right in the face and get it over with.( witch in a sense you did.. but your still a lil gentle.) I dont know if you ever did have any sort of real feeling twords me..See.. the thing I supose Im know for. is forgive and forget. cause really.. Im shure if you brought something to my attention now.. that mabey you did or I did.. I probly wont rember. yeah somewhere yeah I know mabey I screwed up in that area. I think somewhere.. in your moms case.. yes shes in her "old ways" its the way she grew up, but I dont think you should worry so much on what she thinks.( l\only cause thats the way it sounds) Also Id say screw what her room mate thinks.. it dosnt even matter.. You know what is.. and you know whwat isnt.. They can say shit, but I think you just keep in mind that ragging on you is messed up.Anyway.. I really think you should take taime to talk to someone(posibly.. hinting around at me)in person. Would be most apreciated..so yeah. Quit beeing such a sissy and talk to me..
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