Oh, my love, please don’t cry~I’ll wash my bloody hands and we’ll start a new life~I ripped out his throat~And called you on the telephone to take off my disguise~Just in time to hear you cry~When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine~The night he died~You mourned the death of your bloody valentine~One last time~Singing...~Oh my love please don’t cry ~I’ll wash my bloody hands~And we’ll start a new life~I don’t know much at all, I don’t know wrong from right~All I know is that I love you tonight~There was...Police and flashing lights~The rain came down so hard that night and the~Headlines read a lover died~No tell-tale heart was left to find~When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine~The night he diedYou mourned the death of your bloody valentine~One last time~Singing...~Oh my love please don’t cry~ I’ll wash my bloody hands~And we’ll start a new life~I don’t know much at all, I don’t know wrong from right~All I know is that I love you tonight~Tonight...~He dropped you off I followed him home~Then I stood outside his bedroom window~Standing over him he begged me not to do~What I knew I had to do ’cause I’m so in love with you~Oh my love please don’t cry I’ll wash my bloody hands~And we’ll start a new life~I don’t know much at all, I don’t know wrong from rightAll I know is that I love you tonight~Tonight...

Words of Wisdom

Well today it was pretty much a slow day. I mean.... I got up and i ate pot stickers for god's sake. Went out, grabbed mike and went to borders. We had a feast and just hang out..now were full and happy..just chjilling out while i watch the half moon..

The moon... gives me so much inspiration. i guess because I relate to it. The silent and content shine...

Club virgin.

Yesterday I went to club 21 on downtown and honestly it was the most fun I had in my life!!!

It was so new, so great, and so wonderful. SO many people were there and when you danced people just randomly danced with you. ^^ I ...never been so happy.

Strange enough all the gay men were hitting on me...and saying that I had a big ass. Which... is true but when a gay guy says it...it makes me feel soo good.... *Chuckles* I guess becuase gays ae all about ass!!

*Throws hands up* WOO!!! Anyway, I made quite a few friends. Theres Cody, Marquis, Danyell, Marylyn, Danny, and Chris. Oh! and another Chris. He's the one that took us in the first place.

We went right when the place opened and it was kinda dull but around 11 things started to get jumping! People were daancing! The place got hot and sweaty and I felt like was in an orgy!! It felt....so good. *purrs*

Which reminds me, you guys need to check my dream jounral www.xanga.com/foxgaurdianofice ... I had a weird dream after going.

But.... this morning was a trip. First of all I didnt get home until 2 in the morning, didnt get in bed until 4:45. when that happened i got up at 7:00 to get my mom up and told her about my misadventures.

She flipped at first; worried. but then she said she would talk to me later. Then when she did she called me three times .

1st time: saying that she was sorry for flipping out and telling me I was banned from clubs. Am not banned from clubs just be careful and pray.

2nd time: saying that when I told her I was bisexual she called me confused. She said I wasnt and she apologized for what she said. She told me to pray...again...

3rd time: She wanted me on the pill. Which i was like "WHAT THE FUCK?! " I was just..confused.


Rp issues

Victor is back and we have been rping like crazy!!! ^^ we have done Malik x Marik and Duo x Quatre. Good times...gooood times.. *Sighs*

Quote of the day

"My kingdom for a Slurpee!"

Kitten's Lament.

Ive been going through my ups and downs today. Ive been trying to keep my cool and to find the middle. But i fear right now, Ive hit rock bottom.

I havent been left alone until now, and its way too late. I thought if everyone would leave me alone that I would be okay. But right now.. .i want someone right me.. I want to be held. To be loved. To be taken care of just for tonight.

I feel like I'm going to cry; the lump in my throat, my vision getting blurry and that sick feeling you get in your stomach as you know that those saline tears are going to come at any moment. But then again, my stomach has been hurting too. Cramps.

Maybe...maybe that is why I'm going through my mood swings. Oh god, I wish I knew right now! I'm so mixed up inside... I'm.... really lonely.

I want someone to call me. I want someone to IM me. I want someone to come, right now, at 11:40 p.m. to whisk me away form this house. I dont even care if its to their car! Just...take me out of this currently gloomy and empty place, grab me and hold me close.. just for tonight.

Just for tonight.

Quote of the day

"I had a dream.... that I was all alone with no one beside me. I wished in my dream that someone, anyone was beside me so I didnt have to feel alone anymore."

-Tidus, Final Fantasy X

It's not right, but its okay.


Well today has been an okay day. Ive been hit with ups and downs, like always. But hey... I guess everyone does.

Up.

I woke up on my own, without anything to wake me up. No one calling my name, No door bell ringing, No phones whatsoever. It was peaceful, quiet, and for once... I woke up before anyone else, including Alexis.

Down.

5 minutes after I was disrupted by my doorbell and teh sound of chainsaws. The gardeners came and worked out on the backyard. It also remidned me that I had another thing to worry about; my Assessment test.

Up.

The Assessment test was only 45 minutes. I was out of there in 46 and when i was walkign to my car I met Sammy along the way. He came running to me like he was hobo wanting my money but I soon recognized him.

Down.

He was kicked out of teh home he was staying in and was forced to live with his aunt. The only way he couild come and visit me is if he takes the bus. Tasha came over as well, finding that her mother is being a bit pushy on her, and was having problems letting her oldest daughter go. Which kinds pissess me off. I gave my friend advice on what to do.... hopefully it will work out.

Up.

Got to eat dinner with mom for once. We had crab, macaroni and cheese, and mozerella sticks.

Down.

Issabella and Isaiah, the kiddy neighbors right next to us, came over and kinda interupted my meal. They asked for some of my food and..uh... I almost snapped. Kinda reminded myself of a tiger protecting it's meal...