Minimum day, Gigantic Hunger

Alright folks! nothing to really see over here. just that i'm home early....and i'm hungry. ::sighs:: im thinking of going to taco bell and just grabbing a burrito or something but i'm not really craving that. for some reason... iwant crab. and lots of it! but beggars cant be choosers...

Tasha's a bit sad today and once again i'm getting worried. I hope she'll be fine...but she has been going through a whole bunch of shit, as have everyone. But shes like my sister and all and i truly care for her and everything so ya know. To tell you the truth, Tasha has some aspects that i love. Shes kind, generous, and sweet even when shes in her worst days. Thats what i love about her ^___^

Hmm..lets see. Nothing else i suppose. Going to get some grub and catch up on some e-mails and homework. I'm soooo behind!! need to take these minimum days and put them to good use. Ta-ta my faithful readers!

oh yea..to Tianna. congrats on getting your comp fixed and what not.

....::Moves head to teh side::

What the? did i say anything about changing the story? i thought it was all the red head's idea to change it. Shes the ones whos like "where going with the legend" crap and "I'm changing it and writing it!" I have no problem with that...but i wouldnt mind with suggestions on chapters and what not. Also i wanted to help out with media changing. ya know form writing to animation. that be fun. I was thinking that pretty song Tianna has on her CD would be perfect for an ending song..just about 1:20 of it...

But um...if you have any writing or remember me saying about changing the story....can you direct me to it? refresh my memory..or is this a different story about it.

Also.... for fun i wanted to add a few more werewolves. ^^ Tianna's already seen a couple but i got one more...its based off Michael.. names Neta

Hmm...what else. I STILL gotta write a few letters. I'm sooo behind. but i have a lot of work too. i just had to write to peoples since ya know...i' m in a REALLY good mood today and I love all my peeps, ya know?

Angers gone, Happiness is out! Its like ..i dont know, a fashion. I just hope the rest of my friends find theirs soon....well some of them. but then they wouldnt be my friends ,no?

Now that i think about it, most of my stress and anger was because i was worried about my friends. but now...i realize is that i cant do much. Its not like i'm their mother. I guess i just let them do what they want but gently warn them every once in a while.

And maybe a few punishments now and then. ::smirks::

RP issues
Sorry, folks. None really since i'm catching up on work and i'm only here to write to you. I think i hurt my Fellow RPer's feelings..I rarely say no.

However, i did make a bit of an RP in my head. Since m'lady has been gone foreva it seems...Nikuumo has been in a state of depression. He feels a bit neglected and went on a vacation on his own to Destiny Islands (Kingdom Hearts fans, this is for you ^.~ ) Anyway...hes jsut on his own for a while, his only peice of territory is a small cliff on the island covered with white sand and palm trees. sounds like heaven? well hes a bit too sad to even notice....

Unstability

Hey folks. Well after more STAR testing i'm a bit tired. for a second i felt like i was going to get sick again...but it was a false alarm.

Today was a pretty good day, talked to my friends for a while..got to hang out. It seems that i'm with friend i forget that i'm even in a hellhole or stuck in a cage. they make me feel great and thats why i get spazzy around them. But also thats the reason they dont know how miserable i can be without them. god, i miss them now. ::Sighs::

Now that i'm home...i just realized that i have a whole bunch of shit to do as well. I mesmorized my lines from Alice in Wonderland finally; i'm the red queen of hearts and i'm pretty excited about that part. The only version ive saw of that play was the Disney movie which showed her a bit .....aggressive. but in MY version on making her totally different. I'm gonna make her spazzy...thats how wonderland is, ne?

Other than that, i hafta memorize my Japanese script. >< stupid stupid sensei! why must she schedule this on the same day that i have my Theatre thing! maybe thats why i'm so stressed..but after this, its all over. things will be easier.

Well theres nothing else to speak off...i vented out my anger so suddenly yesterday and i'm kinda going through the aftershock. I read over the stuff i wrote and it kinda shocked me. O_O; i dont know if i should apologize or not...

Anyway, thats all i can think about writing! no wait! faithful readers, i'm working on a werewolf story with a friend and i think we might need a few fellow wolves/friends in story so if youll like to participate e-mail me and let me know.

RP issues
well lamarie and i are working on a 'great race' kinda RP starring Tora, Oynx, and Ami. Of course Sage, Sho, and Shun are there to cheer them on and Toki's the um..spokeskitten.

Also one of my faithful Rpers, Micheal and i are working on something that has a bit of a Inu-Yasha kinda feel. ^^ its actually going on pretty well. Ill admit the angel one didnt go to well..shes was too innocent and it started off awkward.

Da goodness of it all

Okay, i got all of the bad stuff out...makes me feel better...like after taking a shit. ::Chuckles::


And since i'm a constant optimist somehow, i had to list some of the great things that happened while i was gone from this website

oh..which reminds me ::huggles site:: sorry for neglecting you baby, my dream journal has been getting my attention and i'm so sorry... yesh i am. Anyway..where was i? ahh..yess

I went to Great America on Saturday! it was a school thing and it was nice; people think so bad on school trips. It was actually fun because there are only 2 grownups that go (one for each bus) and theyre just with you on the ride. when you get there they just give you your tickets and let you go! It was nice...i got you hang out with Zach, Kevin, Jessica, Lydia, Leslie, Evlyn, Jackie, and Crystal. Stacey..as usual...was ignoring me.

and it felt goood....

Well i cant get on many rides because of my disability but it was still pretty cool. i wanted to get on invertigo but when everyone decided to get on, i was feeling a bit sick from friday...also i just ate..not a good idea! but i did go on the demon, the rapid ride, the go carts, Vortex, and some other random rides! i also got to take a pic with Cosmo! ::Swoons::

i did other stuff but i cant remember at the moment...to fun.

But other than that nothing 'good' happened...except a few nice daydreams.

Loss of Mind, Caged Spirit, Fog of Confusion

Well its happened, on Sunday I finally snapped. I woke up after having a strange dream and i just was full of anger and confusion. I didnt even know what i wanted to do anymore. I saw nothing but red and thought of nothing but to kill something and drown myself in cold water. But my mind has been put to rest a bit. I talked to my mom on the things on my mind...on how i need to have a change ...somehow. a change in me, a change in scenery..something . She agrees. But she also thinks i'm going through depression and might need to go on meds. I dont want to be on meds, but i dont feel like myself...i'm usually not this..agressive with anyone.

Oh...and tianna was supposed to come over on saturday but didnt. and after reading alex's website, i knew where she is. this didnt bother me; i'm glad that she was with some friends than out on the street like a prostitute ::half smile:, but she couldve warned me. I dont like to be used as an escape goat at all....it happened before and it pissed me off. yes, my calm, cool nature usually makes me a bit of a pushover but that kind of shit just gets you in more trouble than its worth..not with one person/party/group but two. and if you got yourself in that situation when you have to lie just to do what you want...then you deserve it and your just making it worse. I'm not going to be there to cover up for you anymore, red-head..better find someone else.

Oh...and mom's catching up to you two, guys. DONT LOOK @ ME! i didnt tell her shit...but shes getting suspicious. I try to lie and tell her that its not true, but shes not beliving it . why am i making this such a big deal? cause if she does find out she will never let you two come over again! no no, shell let Tianna come over seperately... Alex can come over by himself perhaps...but you would never be able to come and hang at my house together....isshonni. and i woudnt like that. you two still are my friends. i still love you to an extent just like its the same for me...right? anyway... sorry...

many emotions rolled into one day

Okay, today was fun! It was superhero day @ my school and i dressed up as my Priestess character. Some people dressed up as well...Tianna scared me with her costume of witch hunter Robin. I thought i was going to have a heart attack...

she looked dead on her...

Then we went to the rally..which was alright, i suppose. ::rolls eyes:: but i did get to sit next to Malika and we were talking. We kinda made a conclusion that Brian's hair was funny cause it curled at the tip of his bangs on the side like an anime character. ::chuckle;:

After that Brian, Zach, Tasha and I went out for the day! We went to Target, Borders, and out to dinner. there was a few books i wanted because of the few weird dreams ive been having and my infatuation with the Zodiac. the one I wanted the most was DarkZodiac..it was cool, it had the BAD sides of the zodiac rather than the good ones. Mines says that i always loose stuff and i cant conform. it was hillarious. The other books was like a dream dictionary/journal, a velvet journal book, and Megatokyo book #2...

Hanging with Brian (the other one) was fun!He gave me piggy back rides believe it or not. ^^ then we were discussing on how he was my brother.. great

oh..and the title? yea, i did have other emotions , right now a bit of ..agitation for no reason @ all. ::shrugs:: i dunno.. but its going away, as long as mom doesnt talk to me...


RP issues
well i'm having a bit of an RP with micheal, but i'm a bit..out there so i'm kinda being a loner.

Strange day

from what i read/heard/saw (take your pick) yesterday i havent had the best day. I dont know, just been crawling into my mind. But i'm sure ill be fine. i made another website on xanga..im sure people will find it soon. i'm just going to use it as a Dream Journal since I'm known to have strange/amusing dreams. if you guys wana search for me just IM me...kay?

RP issues
I had a bit of an Poke'mon RP with Micheal by request and i had fun with lamar. we were debating if i was doomed or not

Back from spring break wiht a healthy mind and a sorta healthy computer

well after a week without her baby, My computer is back proud and strong! Also i'm doing well too...i got enough sleep *sigh*

everyone seems..alright about me returning. the only one that was actually excited was michael.. ::giggles:: which made me happy. Also big bro was okay when i returned but he was sad when i left again.

so..eh...but um...im kinda reading something that i dont know i should read or not..so i'll..uh..catch ya later. no Rp issues at the moment..well none that i'm finished one.. ::Chuckles::

`Comp death, rebirth, soo much!

Alright, my comp is working after about a week of crappiness so i had to hurry up and try to leave a blog for yall...dont know, but i think it just need to be cleaned out. so i asked mom for some floppy disks so i can save my new pics/ poems/ erotic stories etc. >.< my god such a hassle. but i cant wait to come and talk to ya'll...please wait for mees

Hmm..what else? Been hearing some stuff about tianna.... ::smirks:: i do not wish to speak of it. here, i mean. but i dont think its something she'd be too pleased about. ::chuckles softly:: i just hope it doesnt affect the close ones we love.

Got more drawings, updating characters and made new symbols for my personas!! also i'm planning to get a scanner/printer/copier to show peoples. might even start my own super picture gallery...

Spring break is coming up soon and i'll try my very very best to get my comp up and working by then. i know some of yous peoples feel like i'm neglecting yous and i'm not...just not in the position right now to ...um...talk as much as i want. positions...mmm... i also have a few things to take care of.....2-3 days of super fun with my closest friends!! TASHIE!! ...maybe

SORRY!! Dirty mind!! >.<

RP issues
having a quick RP with my friend micheal!! ^^ other than that...nada! however, i'm planning to have a werewolf RP with tianna and make a website story like broken kitten...cool, ne? Wish us luck!