Last day of the year, ne?

Well it has been a long year. The Demons fridge isnt exactly a year yet...it would be in 28 days after this.

But it has been a long year for me. I cant believe how many things changed and yet stayed the same. Some friend have come and gone, I have learned many things. But now that I think about it, thats how every New year is.

Things come and go. You grow and learn. Its no different..its just how life is supposed to be. And I wouldnt have it any other way.

Hmm..I never really wrote anything for christmas, did I? I guess I should..

Yea, my christmas was a lot better than I thought it would be. At first I thought I wasnt going to get anything but Alexis stepped in. She got me many sketchbooks, prisma colors, a webcam and a cellphone! I was so happy..

Also my uncle got me some sktchbooks and some Oil Pastels and watercolors. I've been playing around with those like crazy.. *purr*

So my christmas was wonderfull...and I dont hafta wait long because my birthday will be coming soon as well. *devilish smirk* 1/20 if you guys dont know.

Well... I guess tha's pretty much it for my life... Everyone Have a Happy New Year.

RP issues..

I signed up sparrow for an Rp community board... Yorido. Its been a while since... 1999 I think. So yea, a big thing. I think it would be pretty fun. So..whatever happens in Yorido I'm going to put on Rp issues update on http://creativepsycho.blogspot.com Its open for the neko and him only.

Hm... what else. I think thats pretty much it. Im not going to put what happens in Im Rps or anything..just for Yorido since they ask for a profile and all that jazz. Gotta keep that option open.

Got a new Rp character...Seto Kaiba. The s/n for him is blue_eyed_dragon_Seto. Its for Yahoo. Sorry, people..hes already taken.

Quote of the day

"Looks like Wheeler's dumb luck saved him again and I emphasize dumb."

-Seto Kaiba

Lost, Lost, All is lost...

Well some bad stuff happened. Whjile i was getting thigns cleaned on my comp a virus deleted every one of my programs on my compy...

So in other words im back to square one.. *sigh*

Ill do product recovery and start with Windows M.E. now... I'll fix my compy soon. It will jsut take me a while to get online... or will it?

Alexis is willing to let me use her compy, so ill still be on.. .Ill just wont have as much freedom.

Sorry... Ill get it fixed sooon...

RP issues..

I had fun with Pup-Pup, Mike's little pet. He's so loving...

Met a new friend named Mellanie.. well... Abbie did.

Quote of the day:

"I asked for teh Hoobastank CD and you Gave me Hoobastank!!! ........nevermind!!!! "

-Dominique's complaint to Santa

A musical cleaning...

Today Nique was stuck with cleaning. It was Thursday; it was usually a perfect tiem to clean. No volunteer work today, no worries. However, today she didnt have that spark she usually got.

Usually she woudl be stuck in that moment of depression. But she couldnt; they wouldnt let her.

Nikuumo, Hikari, Lil Tiger and Midnight were all helping cleaning the house, each of them in a different area. Nique, who was in the living room, was sweeping the corner of the room, along against the wall. It usually was easier to vacum this way.

The house was silent except for the different shuffling and clinking of items going on in the house. No one really had much to say...or they didnt want to say. They knew that the angel was still a bit down in the dumps and so they decided for her to all come over and do somethign together. They let the angel to decide and she wanted to clean; not the most fun but it was her choice. So all was quiet... the sounds of sweeping, dusting, scrubbing and the occasional sneeze and cough were signs that they were alive.

Then a giggle could be heard from the master bedroom.

The girls which were in different areas all met together in the hallway, blinkign, looking down to see what was happening. Soon their eyes widened and then they giggled.

The fox demon, being a fool, was wearing one of the creator's mom's wigs. It was brown, , short and with a flip. He posed a bit with it and the girls continued to laugh. Even Hikari, who has been suffering from acute depression couldnt help but to laugh.

Nikuumo wiggled around, or rather shimmied, saying one word in a deep deep voice.

"Jitterbug."

Nique smirked; She knew where this was going. She repeated teh word back to him and Nikuumo suddenly slid up to Hikari in one swift movement, bringing her close as if she was his lover. He grinned, golden eyes meeting silver and then he spoke up...or rather sang to her.

"You put the boom boom into my heart,"

And as if on cue Nique and Midnight played back-up singers, singign those two cute notes. THe orange eared demon danced with the angel, taking her out of teh hallway and into the living room.

"You send my soul sky high when your lovin’ starts.
Jitterbug into my brain..."

The creator and the werewolf jumped onto teh couch, yelling in unison

"Yea yea!"

Then suddenly he pressed the angel against the wall, giving her those gentle pelvic thrusts, still singing. She squealed, laughing.

"Goes bang bang bang till my feet do the same..."

Nikuumo let go of the now shaken, giggling Hikari and started to dance, with the wig, wiggling his hips around, doing it for a good laugh, lighten the mood on the cloudy day.

"But something’s bugging me, Something ain’t right..."

As if on cue the striped girl jumped on Nikuumo's back, taking over the singing.

"My best friend told me what you did last night....Left me sleeping In my bed. I was dreaming..."

Then Nique, Midnight, Midnight and Nikuumo all sung in unison, looking to Hikari.

"But I should’ve been with you instead!"

The tiger snatched the wig off of Nikuumo and then slid off of his back, wearing it now. She sung, doing a funky 1980's dance, causing Hikari to laugh once again.

"Wake me up before you go go..."

She then used her tail as a whip, grabbing hikari by the waist, bringing her close and letting her go, forcing her to spin like a top.

"Don’t leave me hanging on like a yo-yo... Wake me up before you go go.."

Midnight then leaped over The tiger's head with ease, grabbing the wig and slipping it on. It was her turn. She danced around, turning her back to Hikari and wigglign her ass around.

"I don’t wanna miss it when you hit that high...Wake me up before you go go....",

Nique spoke up, remembering this lyric.

"cause I’m not planning on going solo....Wake me up before you go go"

The dark one with the buns then snatch the wig away and was about to put it on but Nikuumo grabbed it, forcing it on....backwards. He didnt care though. He grabbed the angel, made her lean back into the couch and sung to her just liek before, wooing her like a prince from a fairy tale.

"...Take me dancing tonite."

Slowly Nikuumo move closer and closer to Hikari, closing his eyes, lips only a few centimeters from touching...

Then Nique hopped up and grabbed the wig off of his head. She sung the last part of teh chorus, grabbing the rake and opening the door for the backyard, Another place that needed cleaning.

"I wanna hit that high..."

Seeing Nique run outside forced the other personas to follow. First Lil' Tiger then Midnight. The only ones in the house was Hikari and Nikuumo, who were both blushing. After a moment of silence he got up and dusted himself up, grabbing her hand and pulling the angel up with him. He then looked over to the door, running out, wanting that wig!! Hikari smiled and followed, happy to have such great friends.

Rp issues..

None really from last night...but... This morning. wow. One girl jsut came up and acted all funky . Guess its no real matter.

Sparrow learned about Sapphire's past. Also Sadi has a bit of a slave. Not for pleasure.... although the slave really wants to.

Hikari and Yami seems to be getting their friendship back.

Quote of the day

"Without music, this would would be really boring."

-Dominique

Announcement: I might finish the rest of the song soon. Maybe. depends if i feel like it.

Lament of a broken and lost light

Poetry I made yesterday. Dont know what to do with it other thanto share and contemplate if I should put it in Hikari's story. I write whats on my heart and mind.

My Darling Yami
My Darkness taht protected me from harm

But as time went by, as lives grew
You started to come and go
Flicker on and off like a broken light
Like a start that twinkles so bright
And then becom shot out into the never-ending void

And like that I, the light, would go
dimmer and dimmer by such actions
From what was bright, brighter than the sun
Has now become a candle light
Dim, small, shy
Or the moonlight
Confused, curious if its real or not

You have Tormented me, abused my heart
And left it for dead on the cold stone floor of
regret, shame and lonliness
Yet everytime you returned
You act stupified, like nothing happened
And I act stupidfied, drunked
The idea that you return to start
Our lives anew

But this is never true

Like always, History repeats itself
The same cycle, the same pain, the same regret

I almost drove myself wild from it
Broken Angel in a dark cage in the hands
Of a clumsy and uncaring demon

But hidden Angels of my own came to save me from my own insanity

The cycle continues but new factors are in
Good for the Light
Knowledge, Friendship
Love, Love I shouldve been getting from
The comfort fo darkness
Deprived love

Becuase of it, you come back
The Darkness
Come from your routine round of selfishness
Rape of Affection, the honey of emotion
I rarely get myself

But the supply is protected
Protected, bulletproof, locked in a safe
Until the smoke has cleared and safer pastures

You attack, lie, sneak, manipulate
Or at least try to
You cannot get inside until demands are met


You claim its my fault
That I am to blame for your unhappiness
Your Actions
But I'm not. You.
Your actions. Your habits. Your character.
Made you what you are

You clame what I do is for revenge
To get back at you
But I'm not. Karma.
I do nothing but live a now normal life
Life not cycling you. Life with love
Love from ones that truly care
Ones on the same level

The thing that attacks is Karma
The great beast of judgement
That gives everyone everything he or she deserves

I get friends, family, love I yerned so long for
But blinded by darkness..the need for the comfort of the shadows

You get pain, regret
Stuck in the same cycle. Whirlpool.
Only on the other side of the board now

Karma; The bringer.
Sometiems a saint, Sometimes a bitch

What goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down


RP issues
Sparrows brother is finally getting married. I dont know if i should be scared or not. I mean, hes a good boy; Nanashi. But hes a bit wild. Goes through girls just like that *Snaps fingers* Goes through kids just like taht *Snaps fingers again* Its like hes just trying flavors. Lets see how long this will last.

Nothing else really; didnt have any time. *Sighs*

Quote of the day

"People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges."

-Joseph F. Newton

Hikari's thoughts...

The angel was seen walking through the garden in the darkest of night. The moon that hun in the sky was a half moon..and thats how she felt; half empty. Silver eyes glowed dimly in the night, stars the only company at that time, as well as teh moon. She didnt even bring Yin-Chin with her, the ferret staying at home fast asleep. She just wanted time alone..alone with her thoughts.

Slowly she made her way to a bench and sat down, looking at her hands. Tehy were cold, trembling and she rubbed them. Alone with her thoughts, the best and yet worse situation to be in. That all changed though for when she looked up she was found a young man standing in front of her. She gasped, almost wanting to scream but his hand gently touched her cheeck and she calmed down, eyes closed softly. She spoke up after a moment of silence, all her pain going away.

"Pharoah..."

He calmed her soul and mind with his touch, taking away all of her pain. She was still confsued, troubled on the conversation that happened earlier in the night. Like any good leader he sensed this in this person, one of his own and he sat down next to her, taking her in his arms and comforting her.

"Hikari.." He said softly, his deep voice soothing her mind. Hearing her name caused tears to stream down her cheeck. He held her tighter, making her feel that she was the only person that was on his mind right now; and this was true. He couldnt have any of his people sad.

"Hikari. What she says...she says out of anger and pain."

"But..." she tried to talk but couldnt, body wracked with sobs once again.

The pharoah put a finger to her lips to silence her.

"Hikari, what she says is true. You do treat her second best, like she is not as important as she was to you. But tell me.... hasnt she been doing teh same? She did this to you long before."

Hikari looked up at him, blinking, listening to his words.

"You do it not because you dont care..but because you learned. I've been watching you two. Thigns have not been going so well..and its because your Yami has been gone, doing her own things that she says its for your benefit..the benefit of teh relationship when shes actually doing her own thing. She comes and goes when she pleases and everytime she does you get hurt. So you move your mind to better things, things that are more important. Dont you agree?

"You do not hate Yami, I can sense this. You love Yami more than everything. But lately you have been questioning if Yami feels the same. That is not how love is supposed to be. And so Hikari, The question is not Do you still care.... but its Has she ever cared..?"

Hikari was silent and then slowl yshe closed her eyes, thinking about his words. It was true, she has been backing away from the thoughts of her soulmate but.... that was long after Yami kept coming and going. the thoughts in her mind which were once jumbled started to come clear like a tangle that was starting to come undone. She looked back up to her loving and wise pharoah, teh one that has actually been there to help her with her most difficult problems.

But he was gone, leaving as quietly and quickly as he came.

Rp issues
None really, sorry.

Quote of the day

"Im Scared. Of us. I want to go home."

-Piggy

Happy birthday!!

Thought i forgot, huh? Today ish lamaries birthday! Wow, its suprising. I remember him being soo..young.. *Starts to cry. Thats when Tora, Ami, and Onyx come in to comfort her*

> Tora < Eh heh...Happy birthday Lamar. Sorry about Nique's wishy-washy ways.. But she does love you... *She looked to nique again who was holding up a sign that said "love!"

> Ami< Yea, Yea she does. Well...happy birthday!!

*nique was mumbling something to Onyx, who could decipher it easily. Only she knew how to translate crybaby*

> Onyx< Nique also wanted to apologize for yesterday. She didnt forget she was just.... taking care of some..what?

*She looked back to nique who mumbled once again*

> Onyx< She said she was taking care of some shite. Whats a shite?!

Rp issues

Quite a few things going on between Yami and Hikari. The angels still confused. Ill write something about it tommorow.

Nique gave mike the belly rub of his life! and it was fun! lol

Quote of the day

" ....Whats a douche?!"

-Cycon

What do you think?

I took this quiz Zach sent me...here is my result. What do you think?

Others see you as sensible...

cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

Rp issues..

Urd has been gone for quite a while...so im starting to get worried. Sparrow also had a bit of a talk with his brother Nanashi. It seems taht the fellow neko is going all around in love..in more ways than one.

Mike and I started a kenshin Rp. Its really funny. ^__^

Tianna and I did a Rp...but it kinda brought back a lot of memories. Also it was a bit...confusing. So currently I feel hallow.

Quote of the day

"Its better to have love and lost than never to have loved at all."

-Tasha.

Eh heh…

Well my faithful readers… I think I made a bit of mistake. I don’t know… I couldn’t lie on it but It is true…

What am I talking about, you ask?

Well…it’s a bit difficult to talk about. Lets just say it deals with In search of Mending. Someone asked a question and I answered. Truthfully.

And I meant it.

know I wonder if I said the right thing at the right time? The person I told looked a bit hesitant. Maybe I shouldnt’ve said that.
then again, maybe she shouldn’tve asked. *Smirks a bit*

RP issues

Made another new friend; Mitsuo. He’s really nice. Sparrows at a masquerade party and performing there. So lets see how it goes. What’s he singing and dancing too? “butterfly” from DDR. I love that song. I also like “Put your Faith in Me” but I cant find it. Anyone who can find it, tell me!

The neko also had to help Ayame, a young and gifted man who turns into a snake in cold weather. Winter started in that Story-line so he’s stuck at Sparrow’s house until Spring…or until we find something that will keep him warm.

Urd is preggers so Sparrow has a job with his brother @ the Bunny Bar. They were dancing and stuff since there wasn’t that many customers.

Ive been using Sparrow a lot lately. I need to make other characters too. Hmm..

Tora, Ami, and Onyx got to see their boyfriends after a while. A long while. I actually had them in suspended animation. >>;

Maxi and I started an Rp but we never finished…what was it about? Her about to get mauled by a bear. *Evil laughter*

And speaking of Suspended Animation; Nick is putting up most of his personas. He said something about since Lara isn’t around he’s not willing to Rp with them anymore. What a bummer. *whimper* I liked Nob-Odi.


Quote of the day

“Only thing you cant recycle is wasted time.”

There's a pain that sleeps inside

It sleeps with just one eye

And awakens the moment that you leave

Though I try to look away

The pain it still remains

Only leaving when you're next to me

Do you know, that everytime your near

Everybody else seems far away

So can you come and make them disappear

Make them disappear and we can stay

So I stand and look around

Distracted by the sounds

Of everyone and everything I see

And I search through every face

Without a single trace, of the person

The person that I need

Do you know, that everytime you're near

Everybody else seems far away

So can you come and make them disappear

Make them disappear and we can stay

Can you make them disappear?

Make them disappear

There's a pain that sleeps inside

Sleeps with just one eye

And awakens, the moment that you leave

And I search through every face

Without a single trace, of the person

The person that I need

Do you know, that everytime you're near

Everybody else seems far away

So can you come and make them disappear

Make them disappear and we can stay

Suprised on a what a bit of rest could do.


Well today is monday ( forget what it says at the bottom ) and im at school. Yes, i finally finished that chapter and its good. Real good to me. I had to go back a few times to fix some errors. I believe its readable now.

I also took the time to make a chapter today as well. Not as long but hey, it doesnt hafta be.

This weekened I had quite a bit of free time....actually..no i didnt. I went to hang out with friends, helped pick out a tree and was laughing it up with my mom. Life actually feels good. But then again, there are only a few days where at least one good thing doesnt happen. I'm greatful for that.

Just gotta look on the bright side of things. *wink*

I'm getting more and more peopel to read my story, its okay if they dont leave a comment. As long as they read it makes me feel good. Although soemtiems i wish they would leave a comment or an e-mail or something. I do like feedback. Things that i might need to work on.

But thats okay. I guess im doing pretty good. Sooo... check out In search of Mending! This goes for you! Yea, you..the one who's reading this.

Hm...what else is worth talking?

Oh, i talked to Tianna yesterday. It was alright, no real arguments. She found a productive way to get rid of anger and im pretty happy for that. As long as she doesnt beat up someone or anything. We didnt talk much; I didnt have much to say really. Didnt want to broe her with my talk. When she asked what i was doing i kidna told her what mom was doing and she didnt sound too excited about that. So i keep my mouth shut. *shrugs*

She was talking about how no one really understands her too. I kinda felt sad about that. I mean, people would understand her if she was a bit..um...direct pehaps? Also if she wasnt so pushy and pully. But thats just me. I think shes doing fine; especially with her boyfriend. They keep each other in check. Reciprocity. The big word in a relationship. *Grins*

And speaking of Relationships... *looks around* mummilus seems to really like Mike. She wants me to marry him. I swere its going to be like that whole "NiquexBrian" thing. Mike is a swell guy; 2 years younger and all that. But I dun even know if he truly likes me like that soo... until he says something im not saying crap! And shut up about it guys! Especially you... >>

RP issues...

Word's out that my new neko character is going to be a papa. Im actually excited about this; so cool.

Mike's (Not the one from school) Is still going power hungry. I swere its liek teh whole DBZ thing so im trying to stay away from him a bit. Ya know... till he gets it out of his system.

The father of Sparrow's Kit-Kats is supposed to be returning soon (His computer was on the fritz but its getting fixed)

And Mikhail and Lady Tsutnami came back and visited teh black neko! it was a nice reunion but it seems that while they were away they were bonding quite a bit.. *Smirks* hehe...

Scene of the day..

Im in a pretty good mood and this scene has been stuck in my head all day so im going to just write it out here.

*neo and morpheus are watching a young woman in a red dress being downloaded...very slowly*

> neo <...why is it taking forever?

> morpheus < That is because the matrix is run by a 56k modem.

> neo < Stupid dail-up...

FINALLY!!

Okay i know this is a quick post but im really really tired and i just wanted to tell you guys..

*inhales deeply* The next chapter for In Search of Mending is done! yay! However theree is a warning..

Warning: The following chapter involes yuri (girlxgirl) writing. If your offended by such a thing dont read. Thank yous.

RP issues

Mikes going for his ultimate form. I dont know what to say by all of that. I just thought it was kind of weird. Why is he always looking for power? *Sighs heavily*

SParrow is planning to get married soon. squee!!

Other than that, nothing..

Quote of the day

"Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in feeling creates love. ."

-Lao Tzu

Have time to post!

Ive been reading quite a bit since my last post. Mostly on “research” for my story. I’m definitely writing a chapter this week. Hopefully two if I don’t have a lot of homework.
Im so sorry for people who have been checking up on it. Really really sorry.

*cough* ahem.. , ive been dong a bit of reading, especially on 8-bit theater. Its funny; what some people write on sites. Im one of them friends say. But whatever..

Someone was talking about Taki from SCII ( soul caliber 2 for people who don’t know ) and it was hillarius!! Appearantly shes got a big package >> and its true. For bother her tits and...ahem…down below. She has more in her pants than what Asteroth has in his hands, which is true. *chuckles* I kinda feel sorry for her.
RP issues

Sparrow got in another fight with his brother but was healed by Urd. So sweet. *purr* But, shes talking about marrage! How scary. Im sorry, but im a bit hesitant of commitment. So we gotta talk on that.

Ahem… Nikuu’s pups are teenagers already. They do age pretty fast. Damn Hellian time. Anyway the eldest, Zidane, is doing well. Mikes trying to be a pedophile thought. Pheh...like that’s going to happen. Going a little too far.

Quote of the day:

“Hey sorry. Had to go to the Ye Old Pawn Shop to cash in my ‘findings’. You’d be surprised by the things people ‘drop’ and the frequency which they are ‘dropped’ given their high monetary values. Coincedentally I happened to find a lot of ‘dropped’ things.”

-Theif