...... *Sigh*
I was reading the post I wrote yesterday.. Wow. I was really mad...and I just wrote out all my anger and my desires in such a manner... And I kinda feel bad.
But all the stuff I wrote is true. I want those things to happen so I wont take my words back. However, I shouldnt have said them when I was angry.
It seems that I'm just repeating myself...that I'm going to the same cycle because of it. I'm just tired of it...
I checked my whole site today...All of teh archives and it seems that I have quite a few posts that say the same stuff. What I want done...and it just gets to me how Tianna will just...ignore it and then disappear which I dont want.
Shes running away. Shes running from problems and it doesnt help. It makes them worse. What was once a small problem of 'not being around as much as I'd like' has turned into this frenzy of pain, and mixed emotions.
I want it to stop.And i keep going back on my word about how I wouldnt see Tianna or talk to her if she wont changes. It hurts what she does...her running away hurts me. And to get away from it she runs off once again... and then comes back when she feels things are better and theyre not...
So ... I wrote her a letter and told her to read my site. And im saying this for the last time... the last.
Tianna, I want you to get things done. I want you to make things better..make choices, fix things...make them better. Its going to take a while...its not going to be easy but it has to be done.
while you do this I dont want to see you. I'll talk to you online, I cant avoid you there. I cant avoid you at school. But I wont have much to say and I'm going to be a bit distance...just think of me as a friend whos there..but then is not.
And also when your actually ready to try this friendship..when your actually ready to mend things up and not run away.... everythings fixed..then you can come to me. Dont give in...dont just come just to see me and then leave again.
Either stay and try ...try to make things better ... or dont come back at all. Or next time you come to me I'll walk past you ... next time you IM me, I'll block you....next time you call me I'll hang up.
I've never been so serious in all my life.
RP issues
Mike and I started something but.. *cough* I had to go to bed..hehe.. or rather he went to bed before me.
Victor and I were doing stuff to get rid of our hunger...Wrestling!!!!
Other news
Since its supposed to rain almost all weekend I believe I'll have time and energy to work on In Searh of Mending. Research paper's done too..a lot off of my chest..for a while.
Quote of the day
"I wouldn't mind if you want to kill me, but I might struggle a bit."
I was reading the post I wrote yesterday.. Wow. I was really mad...and I just wrote out all my anger and my desires in such a manner... And I kinda feel bad.
But all the stuff I wrote is true. I want those things to happen so I wont take my words back. However, I shouldnt have said them when I was angry.
It seems that I'm just repeating myself...that I'm going to the same cycle because of it. I'm just tired of it...
I checked my whole site today...All of teh archives and it seems that I have quite a few posts that say the same stuff. What I want done...and it just gets to me how Tianna will just...ignore it and then disappear which I dont want.
Shes running away. Shes running from problems and it doesnt help. It makes them worse. What was once a small problem of 'not being around as much as I'd like' has turned into this frenzy of pain, and mixed emotions.
I want it to stop.And i keep going back on my word about how I wouldnt see Tianna or talk to her if she wont changes. It hurts what she does...her running away hurts me. And to get away from it she runs off once again... and then comes back when she feels things are better and theyre not...
So ... I wrote her a letter and told her to read my site. And im saying this for the last time... the last.
Tianna, I want you to get things done. I want you to make things better..make choices, fix things...make them better. Its going to take a while...its not going to be easy but it has to be done.
while you do this I dont want to see you. I'll talk to you online, I cant avoid you there. I cant avoid you at school. But I wont have much to say and I'm going to be a bit distance...just think of me as a friend whos there..but then is not.
And also when your actually ready to try this friendship..when your actually ready to mend things up and not run away.... everythings fixed..then you can come to me. Dont give in...dont just come just to see me and then leave again.
Either stay and try ...try to make things better ... or dont come back at all. Or next time you come to me I'll walk past you ... next time you IM me, I'll block you....next time you call me I'll hang up.
I've never been so serious in all my life.
RP issues
Mike and I started something but.. *cough* I had to go to bed..hehe.. or rather he went to bed before me.
Victor and I were doing stuff to get rid of our hunger...Wrestling!!!!
Other news
Since its supposed to rain almost all weekend I believe I'll have time and energy to work on In Searh of Mending. Research paper's done too..a lot off of my chest..for a while.
Quote of the day
"I wouldn't mind if you want to kill me, but I might struggle a bit."
-Trowa
posted by Lady Sad'e at 8:16 AM
1 Comments:
You truly are a reflection of this girl. but the light isnt always right.. mabey you could step into the dak and see whats out there. You seem like you want to stay in the right because saying your wrong is another thing entirely.
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