...!!!
I'm tired of it! I just am.. I'm tired of trying to get things fixed, to get things finally solved and then stuff happens. If you guys dont know its the whole red head thing.
I told myself that it was over... I told myself that I didnt want her around if she cant change..for shes the kind of person I'd rather die than to become... I dont know, its just the stuff she does.
And then yet, I want her to be my friend.. I want things back to the way they were..where we used to hang out and stuff..
But at the rate things are going its like I should forget it.
She tells me that I need to come up as well.. That i need to go and help fix things. But thats what ive been trying to do! Ever since shit was messed up! I mean the first time she yelled at me and ran off to get from giving me a simple apology ive been trying to catch up and get thigns fixed. To see what I have done to make she sure she doesnt do it again. Also to make sure that I call on her for bullshit like that..
But she runs off..cause she thinks its 'better for me?!' What the fuck?! You cant tell me whats better for me! I'm the one in pain, god dammit! Fuck, At least come up to me and say that your going!
Her being gone and things not getting FIXED is whats making it worse! Things getting fixed; Things being solved where we dont hafta really be friends if we dont want to but we actually know that the tension is gone is what is better for me! I cant fucking live with so much tension..so much hidden stuff were she nor I can say. *sighs heavily*
Oh my god! Im just pissed! She does it again. She says I wont understand, That i wont get it .. well fucking teach me! Talk to me abotu it! dont care if it takes 4 minutes or 4 hours! i want to know. I WANT TO GET IT! So i dont hafta feel this same crap over and over and over. I listen! I'm not like others..
I also want her to stop torturing herself. Shes 'torn'? well sew your ass back up. Dont run off, dont keep yourself in that same position... do something! And if you cant do it alone thats what friends and family are for..advice!
Even I cant do it alone. No one can.
But yea...thats just getting to me. *Sighs heavily* I feel better though. I just want tianna to get it in her head that she needs to get some old habits away. One..running away or going away from a problem. Just closing your eyes and taking a trip doesnt mean that the problem will dissipate. Fix it. And dont come back acting all happy when, for starters, your not or when you know that the other people arent happy as well.
Fix.
Rp issues.
none. Again.
Quote of the day
"Let me love you."
I'm tired of it! I just am.. I'm tired of trying to get things fixed, to get things finally solved and then stuff happens. If you guys dont know its the whole red head thing.
I told myself that it was over... I told myself that I didnt want her around if she cant change..for shes the kind of person I'd rather die than to become... I dont know, its just the stuff she does.
And then yet, I want her to be my friend.. I want things back to the way they were..where we used to hang out and stuff..
But at the rate things are going its like I should forget it.
She tells me that I need to come up as well.. That i need to go and help fix things. But thats what ive been trying to do! Ever since shit was messed up! I mean the first time she yelled at me and ran off to get from giving me a simple apology ive been trying to catch up and get thigns fixed. To see what I have done to make she sure she doesnt do it again. Also to make sure that I call on her for bullshit like that..
But she runs off..cause she thinks its 'better for me?!' What the fuck?! You cant tell me whats better for me! I'm the one in pain, god dammit! Fuck, At least come up to me and say that your going!
Her being gone and things not getting FIXED is whats making it worse! Things getting fixed; Things being solved where we dont hafta really be friends if we dont want to but we actually know that the tension is gone is what is better for me! I cant fucking live with so much tension..so much hidden stuff were she nor I can say. *sighs heavily*
Oh my god! Im just pissed! She does it again. She says I wont understand, That i wont get it .. well fucking teach me! Talk to me abotu it! dont care if it takes 4 minutes or 4 hours! i want to know. I WANT TO GET IT! So i dont hafta feel this same crap over and over and over. I listen! I'm not like others..
I also want her to stop torturing herself. Shes 'torn'? well sew your ass back up. Dont run off, dont keep yourself in that same position... do something! And if you cant do it alone thats what friends and family are for..advice!
Even I cant do it alone. No one can.
But yea...thats just getting to me. *Sighs heavily* I feel better though. I just want tianna to get it in her head that she needs to get some old habits away. One..running away or going away from a problem. Just closing your eyes and taking a trip doesnt mean that the problem will dissipate. Fix it. And dont come back acting all happy when, for starters, your not or when you know that the other people arent happy as well.
Fix.
Rp issues.
none. Again.
Quote of the day
"Let me love you."
- Mario
posted by Lady Sad'e at 10:52 PM
1 Comments:
Grass Hopper:
I am re-writing this as best as I could because I dropped the mouse with my previously written comment and when I picked it up it was gone. Did you get it?
Well I started off by xepressing to you the reason why there is no need to express yourself with profanity.
It only expresses the sometime difficult task that it takes for one to dig deep within to find the proper words that it would take to express ones true feelings.
It allows you to be more creative in your expressions to yourself and towards another by not allowing a person, situation or thing to control you and or your emotions. Self control and respect for yourself first and another second is always important in being a real woman.
About Red Head:
Seems to me that you sometimes forget , as we all sometimes do, what you have heard so many times over the years. Some if not most people dome into our lives but for a season.
For some it's to either learn from or teach us something in life that we need to know or visa versa.
But either way there comes a time when we must "Let Go and Let God" But there is the other part to that which seems to be the most difficult for us humans...yet not for most animals like Lioness and their cubs.........lt's called, are you ready for this?
ACCEPTANCE!
I know, i know it sucks but the sooner we do it, the better off we are emotionally, spiritually which leads to our physical well-bein!
In other words to quote Bobby McFarin: "Don't Worry Be Happy"
And remember:
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, cougage to change the things I can and the WISDOM to know the difference"
I love you,
Mom
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