Lament of a broken and lost light

Poetry I made yesterday. Dont know what to do with it other thanto share and contemplate if I should put it in Hikari's story. I write whats on my heart and mind.

My Darling Yami
My Darkness taht protected me from harm

But as time went by, as lives grew
You started to come and go
Flicker on and off like a broken light
Like a start that twinkles so bright
And then becom shot out into the never-ending void

And like that I, the light, would go
dimmer and dimmer by such actions
From what was bright, brighter than the sun
Has now become a candle light
Dim, small, shy
Or the moonlight
Confused, curious if its real or not

You have Tormented me, abused my heart
And left it for dead on the cold stone floor of
regret, shame and lonliness
Yet everytime you returned
You act stupified, like nothing happened
And I act stupidfied, drunked
The idea that you return to start
Our lives anew

But this is never true

Like always, History repeats itself
The same cycle, the same pain, the same regret

I almost drove myself wild from it
Broken Angel in a dark cage in the hands
Of a clumsy and uncaring demon

But hidden Angels of my own came to save me from my own insanity

The cycle continues but new factors are in
Good for the Light
Knowledge, Friendship
Love, Love I shouldve been getting from
The comfort fo darkness
Deprived love

Becuase of it, you come back
The Darkness
Come from your routine round of selfishness
Rape of Affection, the honey of emotion
I rarely get myself

But the supply is protected
Protected, bulletproof, locked in a safe
Until the smoke has cleared and safer pastures

You attack, lie, sneak, manipulate
Or at least try to
You cannot get inside until demands are met


You claim its my fault
That I am to blame for your unhappiness
Your Actions
But I'm not. You.
Your actions. Your habits. Your character.
Made you what you are

You clame what I do is for revenge
To get back at you
But I'm not. Karma.
I do nothing but live a now normal life
Life not cycling you. Life with love
Love from ones that truly care
Ones on the same level

The thing that attacks is Karma
The great beast of judgement
That gives everyone everything he or she deserves

I get friends, family, love I yerned so long for
But blinded by darkness..the need for the comfort of the shadows

You get pain, regret
Stuck in the same cycle. Whirlpool.
Only on the other side of the board now

Karma; The bringer.
Sometiems a saint, Sometimes a bitch

What goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down


RP issues
Sparrows brother is finally getting married. I dont know if i should be scared or not. I mean, hes a good boy; Nanashi. But hes a bit wild. Goes through girls just like that *Snaps fingers* Goes through kids just like taht *Snaps fingers again* Its like hes just trying flavors. Lets see how long this will last.

Nothing else really; didnt have any time. *Sighs*

Quote of the day

"People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges."

-Joseph F. Newton