moody..embarrased..fatigued..

yesterday i was going through mood swings. I was happy in the beginning, depresed in the afternoon and by evening i was ready to bite someones head off. I played it cool though, controlled my temper, i just wasnt super happy as before.

Then i found out why today. *blushes* its that time of the month.

So thats settled, i think im back to normal but jsut somethings itchin' teh back of my mind again. for people who read this, you know who..

I talked to her for a bit, i didnt have much to say because its those 'small talks' that no one really wants to talk or hear about. Dont get me wrong, i'd love to talk to her..i just didnt know what to say that was worth talking about. All except that Nikuu became a parent.

Other than that, nothing. Then she got mad and said i was 'critizing' and that got me pissed..again.. It wasnt as much as before because those kind of words jsut dont hit me as much coming from her but..meh..still got me mad.

Theres a difference between "not wanting to talk to you" and "not having anything to talk about." *rolls eyes* she needs to stop being so defensive.. im not trying to attack her or say that i hate her. i hate some of the actions she does; things that seem cruel or inconsiderate, but i dont hate her. I could never hate anyone...

Except people who hurt or kill people just for the fun of it... things who can do ungodly cruel things for their enjoyment. Those people i can hate..

I dont know why she thinks i hate her. I dont.. I cant. Im too mushy. There are times where i get mad with her or i argue with her but i dont hate her. We can agree to disagree...

But enough about that, ive been going on about this for a long time now. Ive had just as many posts about her than other things, possible more. Dont believe me? check the archives of my blogs from all the other months. Now to better things...

I got my pictures back i took for the yearbook; 16 in all. They look nice, I actually like them. Tasha was nice enough to scan them for me. If anyone wants one then just IM me, alright? im willing to give you a couple.

Theres one i took where i actually look like a soap opera character; like im some rich woman who died and left a will. *chuckles*

I sent a couple to John (another one, sorry Coyote), Alex (the other one, sorry D.L ), and Kalen... they all said they like it. I think they were just being nice...

But yea. Also John and I were talkign about some of his marvelous adventures with trying stuff out. He also talked about his friend Billy, who's brain is completely fried. It was extremely funny about how he gave his friend a pack of sweet n' low and told him it was Diet Coke. I kinda felt sorry for the big lug... heheh

RP issues

Well Zane and Sparrow had a bit of fun yesterday..or was it the day before? hmm..i dont remember, it was fun though. Sparrow has joined Zane on his quest for world dominiation... among other things. The neko was also kind enough to let the commander stay in his house; an old abandoned mansion in a ghost down.

There wsnt a lot of Rp last night though; i was going to start somethign with Steven but i had to go and sleep. Im still tired *yawn*

Alllsoooooo.....no, i think thats it.

Quote of the day:

"Do what you think is right in your heart. You'll be criticized anyway"

-Eleanor Roosevelt