okay...what?!
another day, another post. For some reason, i was filled with depression after writing yesterday's post. I dont know why... but i guess my body and spirit know something that my mind does not.
And i guess i found out later that day. *sigh*
yesterday i talked to a friend of mine... its the one i always talk about im sure you faithful readers already know so i wont say no names.
Well, yesterday she was talking to me..the red-haired one and she was just..asking what was up. I told her, it was nothing new..she didnt look to interested in in anyway , which is not a big suprise. *Shrugs* she came over yesterday (uninvited which was extremely rude. ) and we watched a movie where we were joking around and everything. It was Sleepy Hollow! the funniest scary movie in my time...
So we joked about that and i asked her what was up and she couldnt tell me anything which i stated was 'nothing new'. i wasnt being rude, i was just stating the truth; when weve talked lately we dont have much to say. mostly becasue we dont hang out with each other and so the stories we'd probably would tell to each other..we wouldnt really care for them becasue they'd be those 'you hafta be there!' kinda things.
Then she called me high-strung...
*raises an eyebrow* i just let her be after that... i knew what the word meant but i had to think about it...it was kinda lodged in the back of my head.
high strung: adj : being in a tense state [syn: edgy, highly strung, in suspense(p), jittery, jumpy, nervy, overstrung, restive, uptight]
Now i dont know if she used the word in the right way but if she did...shes right. I am high strung around her; i cant stop that. And its not because im scared or anything... im just keeping my gaurd up. *sighs* Its just all the chances that ive given her..and thigns never really changed. sure, it was nice for a little while but then things went back to the same old thing where id somehow position myself to get hurt..like the perfect target. I dont know if she understands that... i dont even know if she cares about it.
I dont know why i act so 'high-strung' around her..probably because of all the things that happned to me in the past with her. i dont have that many..ehm...fond memories. I have a few, but that was way in teh past and the things that have been happening has killed the hope if anything will be back to normal. the way it was. maybe it was meant to be...
She still has her chance...I wont take that away. However, if she wants it so badly she must act like she wants it. Gonna take guts...a lot of guts but if she wants it shes gotta go for it. I wont do much; ill listen and see how it goes. but if she doesnt come up...oh well. Its not like sleeping beauty, im not waiting for her. I cannot actually say that i dont want her miss up on this chance...i cant say that i do...i just want her to make a decision and go for it.
RP issues
mike and I started another RP! ^^ yuuup... its an anthro one this time! furry high school! it was pretty funny... making dares and everything.
my new friend (undonewhispers) and I are supposed to do an RP. he said he needs a dominiant male...i think i can play that.
Quote of the day:
"they hatch from their little eggs on teh beach and then coo-coo-ka-choo, they find their way back to the big old blue"
another day, another post. For some reason, i was filled with depression after writing yesterday's post. I dont know why... but i guess my body and spirit know something that my mind does not.
And i guess i found out later that day. *sigh*
yesterday i talked to a friend of mine... its the one i always talk about im sure you faithful readers already know so i wont say no names.
Well, yesterday she was talking to me..the red-haired one and she was just..asking what was up. I told her, it was nothing new..she didnt look to interested in in anyway , which is not a big suprise. *Shrugs* she came over yesterday (uninvited which was extremely rude. ) and we watched a movie where we were joking around and everything. It was Sleepy Hollow! the funniest scary movie in my time...
So we joked about that and i asked her what was up and she couldnt tell me anything which i stated was 'nothing new'. i wasnt being rude, i was just stating the truth; when weve talked lately we dont have much to say. mostly becasue we dont hang out with each other and so the stories we'd probably would tell to each other..we wouldnt really care for them becasue they'd be those 'you hafta be there!' kinda things.
Then she called me high-strung...
*raises an eyebrow* i just let her be after that... i knew what the word meant but i had to think about it...it was kinda lodged in the back of my head.
high strung: adj : being in a tense state [syn: edgy, highly strung, in suspense(p), jittery, jumpy, nervy, overstrung, restive, uptight]
Now i dont know if she used the word in the right way but if she did...shes right. I am high strung around her; i cant stop that. And its not because im scared or anything... im just keeping my gaurd up. *sighs* Its just all the chances that ive given her..and thigns never really changed. sure, it was nice for a little while but then things went back to the same old thing where id somehow position myself to get hurt..like the perfect target. I dont know if she understands that... i dont even know if she cares about it.
I dont know why i act so 'high-strung' around her..probably because of all the things that happned to me in the past with her. i dont have that many..ehm...fond memories. I have a few, but that was way in teh past and the things that have been happening has killed the hope if anything will be back to normal. the way it was. maybe it was meant to be...
She still has her chance...I wont take that away. However, if she wants it so badly she must act like she wants it. Gonna take guts...a lot of guts but if she wants it shes gotta go for it. I wont do much; ill listen and see how it goes. but if she doesnt come up...oh well. Its not like sleeping beauty, im not waiting for her. I cannot actually say that i dont want her miss up on this chance...i cant say that i do...i just want her to make a decision and go for it.
RP issues
mike and I started another RP! ^^ yuuup... its an anthro one this time! furry high school! it was pretty funny... making dares and everything.
my new friend (undonewhispers) and I are supposed to do an RP. he said he needs a dominiant male...i think i can play that.
Quote of the day:
"they hatch from their little eggs on teh beach and then coo-coo-ka-choo, they find their way back to the big old blue"
-Crush
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