Laying back to chill
 
Hey folks... ::She said as she sat in a hammock, rocking back and forth slowly::

sorry i havent been around very much; some things have happened with Tianna and I and i think iwas seen as the argument of the century. Our friendship was on the line with this one...and I think it did open my eyes a bit.

It showed a bit of truth, showed a bit of the things that have been hidden on both sides and finally came out. I dunno but i do feel a bit better now that I learned some things ; some of myself and from Tianna.

But i think im just gonna go with myself since i dont wanna spark up anything else:

I learned...that i do have a bit of weakness. But its not any of the weakness that I thought. It was the weakness of others well being. I worry and stress about people feelings, emotions, and well being around others, even if I was suffering more than them. Im trying to teach myself not to stop completely but know when to give it a rest. I just kinda bring myself to my own self-destruction.

I  learned that people go through some tough times in their own ways. That they cope with certain stuff in their own style, even if its a way that i dont really approve of. I cant change it, its their way...and its up to them and only them to deal with it.

I learned that i shouldnt listen to everything someone says about me because most of it is not really true. That It might be to them but it shouldnt affect the person its directed to. Its just how they see it...doesnt mean that its real.

I learned that even though i dont want it to be true, some cant really live up to be my friends. I hate to see that.

But look..i dont want to go into more of it right now.  I just..cant.. im trying to get more things in order . Right now i just want to chill... I need it.