stretched in two ways..

Right now i dont know how i feel...

I have a headache..i feel pissed, enraged, furious! how can people be so stupid?! can you tell that i dont wanna be bothered?! >.< Like i didnt want to be bothered when i entered the house and yet you ...family wanted to bother me and piss me off! i just wanted to go to my room without being called...my god can that happen to me once? Im tired, lonely, and lustful dammit!

on the other hand..

ive never felt like this before....i actually look forward coming home. once i actually make it to my room i feel in a dream state. nothing could bother me...nothing. Im taken care of in the back of my mind...people love me. are they make believe or not...? it doesnt matter...theyre with me now.

::She closed her eyes, floating in mid-air, looking as if she was undewater::

mmmm....heart and mind torn up in different places..