A bit tired, a bit hurt, but i hid it well
Today...was shit. nothing was really good today. However, all my friend behind there made the pain go away. I feel like theyre my anti-depressant.
But some friends i see more than others and I wish I could see all my friends equally. Its kinda hard being a hybrid- you have so many different friend groups and some dont get along well. Its kinda like..keeping a pit bull; you cant take it to the doggy park and the only type of dog it likes to hang out with is family. Otherwise theyll fight.
However,I saw about all my friends today at least for a little while. whether it was a glance or hang out with them for a bit it was still good so that made me happy.
The final stretch has got me stressed out though! and my parents arent really helping me. I have Animation ROP right and i wanna do the very best i can. But i learned that, although i have great Ideas...animation isnt really for me. I believe that comic making is more my thing.....its would be nice to see my art come to life however.
so i think that I'm going to get out of ROP...i dont even think im on the roster anyway so all the work i did didnt mean shit. I guess that the tickets that i told I would sell doesnt mean shit as well---everyone in my neighborhood is broke as well. ::sighs::
I only sold 1 1/2 (this one lady gave me 5 bucks....it wasnt enough and i didnt have anything i guess ill keep it for myself. >>; )
RP issues
very very very small RP with the bright red haired one. Basically she was apologizing me again and theres no reason. its not her fault. it seems that shes trying to make everything better and to tell the truth, it doesnt really numb the pain.
man i miss her.
Other news
well i'm still not feeling too great--i feel like i'm changing. I dont want to though, I like how i am. Everyones pushing me to change and i just wanna stay where i am. Moms the worse of all..
She wants me to change my hair..
She wants me to change my style of clothing.
And now she wants me to change my way of writing, my way of daydreaming and the comix i write
She claims shes not and just wants me to try something new. but i'm not ready! I'm still trying to get used to mom being like she is now and how my family is all apart. Man sometimes i feel like i'm in hell when i'm at home. but i guess thats how everyone my age feels i guess...
>> i so need help now.
Today...was shit. nothing was really good today. However, all my friend behind there made the pain go away. I feel like theyre my anti-depressant.
But some friends i see more than others and I wish I could see all my friends equally. Its kinda hard being a hybrid- you have so many different friend groups and some dont get along well. Its kinda like..keeping a pit bull; you cant take it to the doggy park and the only type of dog it likes to hang out with is family. Otherwise theyll fight.
However,I saw about all my friends today at least for a little while. whether it was a glance or hang out with them for a bit it was still good so that made me happy.
The final stretch has got me stressed out though! and my parents arent really helping me. I have Animation ROP right and i wanna do the very best i can. But i learned that, although i have great Ideas...animation isnt really for me. I believe that comic making is more my thing.....its would be nice to see my art come to life however.
so i think that I'm going to get out of ROP...i dont even think im on the roster anyway so all the work i did didnt mean shit. I guess that the tickets that i told I would sell doesnt mean shit as well---everyone in my neighborhood is broke as well. ::sighs::
I only sold 1 1/2 (this one lady gave me 5 bucks....it wasnt enough and i didnt have anything i guess ill keep it for myself. >>; )
RP issues
very very very small RP with the bright red haired one. Basically she was apologizing me again and theres no reason. its not her fault. it seems that shes trying to make everything better and to tell the truth, it doesnt really numb the pain.
man i miss her.
Other news
well i'm still not feeling too great--i feel like i'm changing. I dont want to though, I like how i am. Everyones pushing me to change and i just wanna stay where i am. Moms the worse of all..
She wants me to change my hair..
She wants me to change my style of clothing.
And now she wants me to change my way of writing, my way of daydreaming and the comix i write
She claims shes not and just wants me to try something new. but i'm not ready! I'm still trying to get used to mom being like she is now and how my family is all apart. Man sometimes i feel like i'm in hell when i'm at home. but i guess thats how everyone my age feels i guess...
>> i so need help now.
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