Arent Saturdays for fun?

Well this weekened wasnt the best ,ill hafta admit. Yesterday the red-head came over which was nice..but she like strolled in around 11:00 pm and i was already 1/2 sleep. Then when she comes in I wake up and ya know..wanna talk about stuff--i dont get to see her that much! But she wanted to sleep..which made me kinda worry. but I let her..i just went to keep myself busy by playing Bloody Roar and watching the Red Queens part a bit more..

Then it was about 8 in the morning and she got up. we talked a bit about a few things then she got a call. she claimed she had an appointment and i let her go, knowing she would come back...but i didnt know who picked her up. I thought it was miss tina but i find out it was Shannon and they went to go and grab a certain present of some sort.

I was shocked...i didnt know what to do. first i was numb, like i didnt know what to think...what to feel. but then it hit me...'of course..how could i be so fucking stupid?'

but now i understand and its not my place. i know that its there choice and i worry about their concenquences but it will catch up to them soon. Its all up to fate now. i just hope it doesnt ruin their relationship or make it any more...um...quarrelsome.

Anyway thats all what happened today. Ive drawn a few pictures, i've watched a few movies and been comforting the red head.... but it still gets to me. My friends mean so much to me....

I talked to Tianna...a bit of a friendly discussion, although i was still wracked with unemotion and she brought up something strange.. shes never seen me mad.

and i think about it....How often do i get mad? like truly 'rip someones head off' type pissed? Do i have that kinda patience? perhaps...too much?